This is not, actually, a dream… rather it’s a sleeping position. I seemed to have had a fairly dreamless night last night. I think I did dream something, but when I woke up I didn’t remember it and so I won’t fret about my lack of remembering.

I did wake up sleeping on the edge of the bed… in fact, it was about one foot worth of bed. Okay maybe two, but not more than that. When it’s cold at night (and I like to sleep with it cool) my dogs Lucy and Levi love to press up against me and sleep there all night.

I love the contact and so I don’t move them. However, my legs tended to be asleep when I woke up this morning, which was not fun. And yes, I do sleep quite comfortably in two feet of bed space with the dogs taking up the rest of the Queen sized bed.

Maybe doing some budgeting and planning would help the dogs and I optimize bed space.. but somehow I don’t think so. The dogs like to take what they can, and usually they get away with it.

Okay I think I’m catching up on sleep now. Man… these big weekends really take a lot out of me. I was hoping to take the boys jogging today, take my lunch when I work from home and do so, but I was just too dead tired. But sitting around for the last couple of days, and sleeping good for the last couple of nights, has helped a lot.

Now I’m settling back into my routine, I need to clean my house this weekend and wash up the bathroom vanities. The Husband has been vacuuming and, fun of fun, picking up dog poop in the yard. He is such a good guy!

I really am not very motivated to work lately… I’d rather play. But that’s really nothing new. We are going to be upgrading our hardware at work and I’m testing out some scripts and making sure they run on the new box. So far, so good, and I’m learning a lot in the process.

Well I’ve not taken any Trazodone for.. what.. four days now? Five? Maybe three? LOL I’ll have to look at my blog to find out because I have a rotten memory.

And while I feel lighter and my temperature feels cooler, my head still hurts quite a bit and I’ve been grumpy as hell for the last couple of days. Am I going through withdrawals? Maybe I shouldn’t have stopped cold turkey. Maybe I should go do some research about it on the internet. Hrm.. Maybe I should have done this a few days ago.

I have a low level anger, but it’s nothing like before I was on the Sertraline (I’m still on that, btw). But at the same time I don’t really care much about things. I can stare out the window and watch the clouds, which I love to do, and have the day pass more slowly, which I also love. I try to grab every minute of every day as it comes, because time just goes by way too fast anymore.

So I do feel better. If only my head would stop feeling like it’s 3 times the size it’s supposed to be. And I’m still tired, though not as badly as I was before. It’s 4:33 pm.. too late in the afternoon to take a nap? Maybe not. Maybe I will take a nap. I took one yesterday, and I felt better. I just love naps.

EDIT: Well, from the web, some places say Trazodone is not addictive and so you can’t have withdrawals. But many people seem to have withdrawals anyway. So I’m going to say yup, I’m having withdrawals from Trazodone and call it good. And I only stopped on the 22nd of Feb, so that’s only three days ago. The days have been going by so nice and slowly, and I am very happy with that!

Hopefully by this next weekend I’ll feel better.

I went to bed last night and I’d forgotten to take my Trazodone to help me sleep. Well I was tired anyway so I decided I’d see if I could skip it. I think I have been taking them since before September to help me sleep, because the Sertraline was making it hard for me to sleep. And I am paranoid about getting enough sleep. It’s one of those fears that I have, that I won’t get enough sleep.

Fortunately I feel asleep just fine and slept most of the night. I did wake up about 3am but I felt pretty good so just laid there and after a while I fell back asleep again snuggled with all the dogs on the bed (three now, including Muffit).

When I woke up I felt refreshed and good. And it made me think. Are all my problems being caused by the Trazodone? I feel so much better today… I haven’t felt this light and airy in months now. My neck is still kinked, but my nose feels more clear and my throat less scratchy.

So I’m going to stay off the Trazodone for a few days and see how it works. I’m afraid of not being able to sleep, but heck it’s the weekend so it won’t be a big deal if I’m tired. I hate being tired during the day. In fact, I’m quite nervous about it. I hate feeling bad. Hate it hate it! But then I’ve felt bad for some months now so maybe, just maybe, this will perk me up. It’s something I should have thought of months ago.. but my sleep is so important I don’t want to mess it up!

Is it Friday yet? No? Oh man… it really should be. This week has been a holiday week and so I’m all messed up. Though yesterday, Wednesday, I was lucky enough to take the boys jogging, take a bath, then take a nap (it’s strange using the word ‘take’ for all those activities). And get a couple hours of work in. I wasn’t feeling well yesterday, I think because I was still tired from the agility trial, and then I went jogging. And on Tuesday I lifted weights during my work exercise time. I haven’t done that in a while and my chest muscles are very sore today. I will do my other set tomorrow.

I want to get back into better shape… for agility, flyball, and the cruise. And the boys really need to do more jogging and exercising. Even Chase is out of shape. So, even if I just don’t feel like it I have to go jogging anyway!

I am just so tired today I could curl up and take a long, deep nap. Maybe because of a big lunch. But I still don’t feel all too well. My neck still has so much pressure and cracks. My throat is scratchy, my nose is almost stuffy.. it’s enough to annoy me, not enough for me to really do something about it. But I’m getting closer to doing something about it.

Maybe I need a plasma lift to carry me around work so I don’t have to walk.. then I could take a snooze on it too.

Almost time to go home for the day, yay!

Wow, so it’s 2008. 2007 sure went by fast. I went to bed at 11pm last night. Should have gone sooner but was working on the VPS. Woke up around 7:30. The dogs don’t like to sleep later than that, and I really am not able to sleep past about that anymore. Though I think after I retire my schedule will go later, I’ll start staying up later again and getting up later. I do love my 9 hours of sleep a night.

Anyway, it’s 9.5 degrees outside. Going to meet a friend from flyball at the dog park at 10am. Will be fun. I love Tanner park. Then gonna work on the VPS more while the dogs sleep from being warn out at the park.

So…

Happy New Year!

Well, sitting here at the laptop with the TV on, figuring out my new VPS server, and it’s 7:41 pm. It really, really feels like it should be about noon.

Granted I took a two hour nap today. I love naps. Might have only been an hour and a half but still, a nap is a nap. Today is a down day for me. I love down days! I bathed all six dogs.. that was a project. We think we might still have some kind of bug because I have been bitten again. Ugh. I hate bites.

Time goes by so fast… that, more than anything, bothers me. Things that make the time go by faster are naps (lol), and being on the computer. Which I have been most of the day.

Things that make time go slow… one of them is camping. I love camping. Can’t go now, too cold with a foot of snow outside, too. But still. We like our trailer, it is a step up from our canvas tent. The trailer has a heater.

Okay back to VPS setup…

And here it is! My new mattress and bed frame! Oh.. I do so love Ikea. They have such nice furniture and it can be so inexpensive. Of course you can spend as much as you want. Which is, in my case, not very much at all.

This is a foam mattress and it was the cheapest queen size foam mattress at $250.00. The frame was also the cheapest frame I could find, at $99. Then it needs a slatted support underneath, for $50, which still wasn’t too bad. The sheets here $9 per sheet.

And look how nice it is. Already my neck is feeling better, and I’m not getting bitten. And we have a mattress cover on order, by mail, that should be here by next Tuesday. Water proof so if the dogs pee, on purpose or on accident, it won’t get into the mattress.

I put the thing together on Wednesday afternoon. The maids didn’t end up coming, they were too busy and had car trouble. That’s okay, though. My husband said I should just use the darn bed, since I bought it. And I really am loving it. And I’m liking being off the ground. The mattress used to just be on the ground and that bugged me. Literally! LOL. This one is fairly short, which I like best, and Angle can still get on with no problems.

I want to go back to bed!

Today is day 18 and I can already feel the impatience growing. Plus I was overly tired today doing dog things all day long. So I’m going to have to start taking Agnus Castus tomorrow to help me out.

I can’t sleep in my mattress for a few days. I want a cover for it and that is going to be mail order. Water proof. Plus, the foam doesn’t reach it’s full shape for 72 to 96 hours! Ugh. So I should wait until it expands to it’s full size from the roll it has been in for a while.

And I think most of my Christmas shopping is done, though I might get a wireless router for someone I know… won’t say who!

Today was a long day, and I spent all the money I can for a while now since the husband isn’t currently working.

At night I am bitten all over by some sort of bug. Yuck. I’m tired of it. Happened before and we had an exterminator come in and for a few months after we were fine. But now they are back. I wake with various mosquito bite looking bites on myself and I’m tired of it.

So I bought a new mattress, the one we have is awful and probably infested with something too small to see. And it’s a king, and a bit big anyway. I bought a Queen at Ikea, and a small cheap frame too. So now I’ll be a bit off the ground which will be nice.

I’m not going to put the mattress out until we get a cover for it. Something water proof so our incontinent kid (okay our incontinent dog) can leak on it and we can wash the cover. And it will protect if from all bugs. And then we are going to wash every stinking fabric thing in our house (dog beds, sheets, blankets, etc.. since the husband is not working he’ll have the time! LOL) and vacuum and maybe spray ourselves. I sealed up all the cracks in the bedroom so nothing new can get in.

Hopefully that’ll work. When I was in Vegas for a week all my bites healed up and I was fine. I want them to stop!

And then maybe some corporate performance management will help us keep the bugs away, as we will manage our surroundings!