Luna Tail

I’ve been stressed lately. Have I mentioned that? Oh probably.. I forget what I post, I have the most awful memory in the world. :p A few things that have been stressing me include our new foster dog, Titus (not really him but he does throw the pack off-kilter) going to Denmark (yes I bought tickets!), work (dang work is really a huge stressor right now), my Mom (I think I made her mad but I’m too chicken to talk to her about it), and painting my spare bedroom.

I’ll post about some of these in more detail later. Maybe I’ll buy some new breeches which might make me happy. But then again, probably not, because my weight is really up and buying clothes is not fun anymore. And as I eat this piece of chocolate… well, that doesn’t help at all.

So too much stress lately, and I have had a nasty headache all day today so I’ve spend most of the day in bed or on the couch and doing nothing. Hopefully my head will feel better tomorrow.

Yup, once again I am suffering from a bad night of sleep.  Maybe it’s been adding up, too. I don’t know. But it’s not any fun at all, and I’m feeling very flaky and light-headed, as though I just didn’t get enough oxygen when I was asleep last night.

Ugh.

I still wonder about the sleep apnea… but I think I’m going to finally give in and do what the doctor told me to.  For starters.  Taking the Nasacort and Allegra and see if that helps.  I guess it could be allergies… but I still rebel against that idea.

Talking to a coworker who is on a C-Pap machine for sleep apnea, his symptoms pre-C-Pap seem similar to mine. My nose seems clogged solid, not like when I’m sick and it’s running.  Afrin does work, but it’s too addictive to use on a regular basis.  It worked for him, too. He says the C-Pap machine keeps his nose clear and drained and he feels better during the day.  And since my husband and I have separate bedrooms, he doesn’t know if I gasp for breath in the middle of the night. I swear I feel like I do, though.

So I dunno. I guess I should do what the doctor orders first.  So I’ll try the drugs for a month and see if they help any.  Bleh. I just really hate taking drugs every single day, and with the potential of the rest of my life.  I really don’t like that at all!

Today I feel oxygen deprived, can’t really hold a thought in my head very well, and I’m so tired I just want to go back to sleep.

I hate going back to the doctor again and again. A friend of mine at work today was telling me about his coughing problem and how he has tried numerous different remedies throughout his life and how he’s found what helps him and what doesn’t. He looks at ingredients in the OTC meds and tries them and if they don’t work he tries a higher dose or something else.  What an excellent scientific method that is!

Me…? Well, I tend to try one thing and if it doesn’t work I throw up my  hands and give up! And going to the doctor and saying ‘that didn’t work’ just makes me feel like a pest, a hypochondriac, or worse (though I’m not sure how to describe worse).

I wish I could find a natural remedy.. but even then, maybe I actually need to do something instead of fret about it. Maybe some Blackberry plants would help.. I do love blackberries!

Last night I swear I woke up a number of times because I couldn’t breathe.  For a long time now my nose has been stuffed and I end up breathing through my mouth at night. But I hate that.. and my mouth naturally closes, then when I breathe through my nose I think I don’t get enough oxygen and I wake up.  Is that a sign of sleep apnea? (Clara suggested I might have it.) I’m not sure, I’ll have to look it up.  But then I think, doesn’t everyone and their dog go into the doctor wanting to be tested for this new-fangled thing they have heard in the news… currently sleep apnea?  Hrmph. I guess I concern myself way too much by what others think (lol I was just talking to Marie about this the other day! I still suffer from this!).

So that’s my dilemma. PMS is starting for me too (it’s day 20 today), which makes me over react to just about everything, and feel shame and humiliation at the slightest things. Yeah.. even on meds (Zoloft), but I feel much better than I did pre-med!

Hrm.. well, those are my thoughts for today. I hated feeling like I woke up a dozen times last night because I couldn’t breathe.  And I was so tired this morning (which isn’t unusual).  And I guess I really should do something about it.

Just wondering… sometimes, rarely, I wake up and I feel really rested and I feel like I’ve had enough sleep.

Eating Dinner

Much too often I wake up and it’s like pulling a tooth to get me out of my bed. I have to get up about 5:30am in the morning to make it to work by 6:30ish… usually I drag my body into work about 7:00am instead.

And I don’t do much in the mornings, either. I get up, shower, let the dogs out, dress (not necessarily in that order), gather my stuff and lunch food, put out the sconces (lol), and leave.

I wonder if I get enough sleep. If I need more sleep… I sleep about 9 hours a night. Some days, my down days, I can sleep in to about 9, take a two hour  nap, and then go to bed at 9. And the enxt day I usually feel like I’ve had enough sleep. But sometimes I need another down day to really get back on my feet again.

Maybe I need more exercise. I am feeling better now that I’m eating better and following Eat To Live again. I’ve dropped another half a pound already… it amazes me how the fat just melts away when I eat a lot of veggies. And I bought clementines at the grocery store this morning too. YUM!

Anyway, just wondering if you in the blogger world out there gets enough sleep, and feels refreshed in the morning?

I woke up today feeling pretty good. Rested. I rarely feel rested and I just have to wonder if I get enough sleep. I know that I like to sleep nine hours a night or so… and usually I don’t get that much. Yesterday ended up being a rest day again. I had a couple of things planned and both fell through so I was able to sit home on the couch and rest, nap, and go to bed early.

I got up at 9am yesterday. I napped between about 11 and 1pm, and I went to bed at 9:30pm. I got up this morning at 7am on my own, feeling refreshed and good. Usually I have to drag myself out of bed because I’m still so darn tired it’s hard to get up.

I also ate good yesterday, following the Eat to Live plan.. I ate a lot of veggies, lettuce, green beans, cauliflower, sweet potatoes (good ones!) and fruit.  So maybe that also helped.  I really do want to keep a lot of when I feel good in the mornings so that I can know what it is that makes me feel good, and repeat it all the time! I so much prefer feeling good and refreshed than feeling like I was dragged through a mud puddle!

Today I’m off to do some agility practice with Chase and Tatum and I feel good about doing it!  I have got to figure out what makes me feel good and refreshed!

I didn’t dream last night… that I remember. Mainly because I didn’t really sleep, either. I was tossing and turning until about 1am. Finally got up and took something to help me sleep. It didn’t even really help, either.

I was hot, even with the swamp cooler on. I was restless. I was too tired, I think, to sleep. I don’t like it when I’m too tired to sleep.

I almost got up to watch some TV… but the thing I don’t like about watching TV after getting out of bed in the middle of the night is how bright the TV screen is. It hurts my eyes. Though our HDTV is nice, and we use HDMI to connect to the DVD player… so I like having nice DVD movies to watch. But in the middle of the night I’d rather have some dumb sitcom to watch instead of a movie and I don’t think I have anything good recorded.

Ugh.. hopefully tonight will be better.

I was going to title this post… grind or clench.. then thought that might sound a bit sexual, so decided against it. So this is a more conservative title, I think!

Anyway.. at night, I don’t grind my teeth, but I do clench them. Sometimes I wake up and not only are my teeth clenched, but my whole body is tense. It’s odd, and I don’t like it, and I think it is a sign of my fairly regularly stressed state that I live in. I really want to relax, but doing relaxation exercises also makes me anxious, and so I avoid them.

I tried an air humidifier when I sleep, but it didn’t seem to help. Maybe a purifier like IQAir would help.. but I dunno. I like the idea, especially with our dogs, the air in our house is probably pretty dirty.

But the humidifier didn’t really help me breathe at night and almost seemed like it gave me a headache, so I stopped using it. Plus, it was just so dang loud.

It’s hard to control one’s muscle and jaw tension when sleeping… I don’t know how, but I want to!

Okay I have ordered a Mattress Topper. Was going to get one from Ikea, where I bought my Sultan Mattress, but I opted for Costco instead. I like the descriptions better. And doesn’t Ikea know that your online presence is critical? Information, people!

I even found a blog that has a review of it, it’s the Novaform Choices Topper. He likes it, I hope I will like it. I like this part of his review:

It converted my super hard mattress into a marshmallow.

That is what I’m hoping for, for my aching back and neck! Now I’m going to go sit on the couch with a heating pad and be a bum.

Last night I know I dreamed, because when I got up to go to the bathroom (which I have to do way too much as I get older) I remember saying to myself that I really wanted to remember that dream. And so I stuck a word in my head that was supposed to remind me of my dream.

That word was Candy.

I remember the word, but do I remember my dream? Heck no. LOL. Oh well!

Well, not only does my neck hurt now.. and yeah, I’m still cracking it and it’s still hurting, and I forget to stop which, I’m sure, makes it worse.

But now my lower back hurts, too. Maybe my mattress is too firm. I recently bought a foam mattress and I bought a firm one, and now I’m thinking I really need to get a less firm one. I really don’t know. I guess I should go to a real mattress store and ask someone that knows something, instead of just reading on the internet. Or, I should read more, instead of just assuming and buying.

Anyway… is your mattress firm or soft?

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