I have this problem with food. I think most women do in the US… probably in the world, actually. I feel like I have to be eating all the time. But then I also feel guilty about it, and I want to not eat, but I’m compelled to eat…
I have gained back all the weight I lost on Eat To Live a few years ago. I think a lot of it had to do with the Diflucan. No matter how well I ate, the weight just kept coming on instead of off. And my overheating was awful. I was so hot! Now I’m back to normal in both accounts, I think. But still, I want to eat, especially in the evenings. And I don’t even know if I’m hungry or not. Bleh.
My clothes are getting too darn small… maybe I need some Free People clothes instead. They look cute!
But I’m going to eat a lot more salads now. Again. And I made a lentil barley carrot soup that is really good. Hopefully the lentils and barley aren’t too calorie heavy. I guess I should look them up. Hrmph.
Well, apparently I’m a failure when it comes to losing weight on my own. BLEH. I mean heck… I do know how to eat, don’t I? I guess not. I lost 20 pounds doing Eat To Live a couple (maybe 3) years ago now. But lately it has been coming back on. I got down to 147 at one point. Yesterday I weighed myself and I was 162. Man! What happened! If I don’t do something soon, I’ll be back up to 170 where I was before I did the Eat to Live stuff.
So I took my sister’s gumption and joined Weight Watchers again. I have got to drop this weight, it’s really starting to piss me off and my clothes are getting tighter again. Noooo!!! I also need to join back up to Leigh’s Take It Off Together Tuesday, I think.
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So today is the first day of Weight Watchers, and the weight will drop. I have this anxiety about recording my food intake. I get nervous about it and I don’t do it. Well, I just have to suck it up and do it anyway. And so here goes! My cruise is on October 25, I hope to get down to about 155 or so by then. Wish me luck!
My flyball captain uses and sells Isagenix, and we were talking about it on our long six hour drive to and from Laramie last weekend. She looks great, has a very, very nice figure, and takes care of herself. She alone is a good representative of the system!
So I’m going to give it a try. I’m going to start the 9 day cleanse tomorrow. Basically I eat their cleansing drink four times a day, and some of their snacks, for the first couple of days. This helps my body clean out toxins. And after eating junk all weekend I really feel the need to clean out. Usually I feel like eating salads and veggies for a few days after… but I don’t end up doing it. This will put me on a plan that will help me do it and follow through with it.
The next five days I eat their shakes and one small meal a day. And the last two days I drink their cleansing drink again. This next nine days will be perfect and put me right up to my next agility trial.. where maybe I can clean out and not crave the junk so much on that weekend.
So as I try this cleanse I’ll post a review about it. Of course I hope to lose some weight, too!
Two things you might hear a lot about if you are in the dog training world are Frustration Tolerance and Impulse Control. Dogs have to learn these things in order to be trained well, and to function in a human based world. Even wild animals learn both of things at a very young age.
I think both of these things translate well in the human world, too. I’ve been thinking about Impulse Control a lot lately. Mainly in the area of eating. I am pretty sure I’m addicted to sugar. And chocolate. And probably salt. I love them all and can eat them all day long.
I get major cravings in the evenings for sugar and chocolate. And usually I give in. Eating right is not only about choosing the right foods. I think a huge part of it is emotionally based, and not giving in to those cravings, and learning about that impulse control. Just because we feel something, either emotionally or physically, giving into it and doing it is not always the best thing!
Sometimes it is. Sometimes we need to follow our gut. But usually in the area of eating, in our society, in our day and age, it’s not. Following the gut, or filling the gut, isn’t a good thing! Eating less, eating healthier, helps us feel better in the long run, and live longer too! And when we lose weight, we can all win trophies for ourselves!
I like this picture.. may not be perfect, but it’s fun. That is Tatum’s ear as she has her front feet on the counter and is looking at my lunch! I like the steam coming off the plate, too.
This is a picture of my healthy lunch. 
I had the same thing for dinner because I’m boring. It’s a boca burger, 1 point, on low cal bread, another 1 point, and all the veggies are probably only a point or two (Weight Watchers Points). I did have Cheese and Light Mayo on the Boca Burger, though, which probably was about 3 more points. But I don’t really like the Boca Burger as much plain, so spruced it up.
And as I was taking pictures of my lunch, Tatum decided to jump on the counter and check it out too.
And this one is, I think, my favorite picture. LOL Tatum is such a goof. It’s too hard to stop a dog once they start to counter surf. So we allow it. We don’t want to use any punishment with the dogs, so they get away with some things. But that’s okay, we are happy with what they do.
Anyway, I am trying to eat healthy. It’s hard… the chocolate calls me. And I love Symphony bars. They are so yummy. I do think I am addicted to sugar and chocolate. I get major cravings in the evenings for both. And, sometimes, for salt too. But my weight isn’t too bad… that’s probably why I don’t try as hard as I would like. Hrmph.
And although I do eat in front of the TV a lot, I don’t usually eat on the bedroom furniture. But then again, sometimes it’s comfy to eat in bed.
Bah! Bah and double bah! I’ll tell you again… bah!
I have been gaining my weight back. I won’t say how much… but when I go out to agility trials and things, I think I should just splurge, and so I do and that is where my troubles lie.
At the Farmington Arena they have these really yummy cheese fries with real cheese. I have to stop eating them. I have to stop having their pancakes for breakfast.
I think I need a plan. I need to make food and bring it with me. I’m not sure what I can make and bring cold though. Hrm.. maybe tuna something. That might be good.
I’m on my feet for 12 hours sometimes on agility days. And dangit, that burns a lot of points!
On a good note, I did go lift weights today.
Uuggggh. I’m terrible. If there is food in front of me, I will eat it. I am compelled to eat it. Doesn’t matter how full I am, how fatty it is, how many calories or anything. I swear… I just will eat it if it’s in front of me.
We went to lunch today for my coworkers birthday. Macaroni Grill. It was really good. I got a salad… but the bread, oh the bread! It was so good, dipped in oil and balsamic vinegar. I had too much. And then my friend had to go and get dessert and that was good too. And how can you just leave a few bites of cake sitting on the table? I just can’t I just can’t!
And so I ate way too much. I’m so much better if there is no food in front of me. Then I can resist what isn’t there. But I just ate and ate at lunch. The good thing is I’ll not be hungry tonight so I won’t eat much. Maybe some steamed asparagus or something. I have some at home. They are good. I don’t even want to know how many points I must have eaten!
Oh, I had a beer, too. Ugh.
I have a weight loss goal… that is the Cruise I’m taking in October! I am so excited! My friend from work and his sister and I are all going to share a cabin. If you stuff three people in a cabin it’s cheaper for the third person, less than half the price, so we are going to split the total cost three ways.
Anyway, lacking tool storage in my house or on the ship is not going to be a problem.. because we won’t need any! But really… I want to drop at least 8 more pounds. I now weigh 153. My high was 170 a couple of years ago. And at 5’7″ that is just too heavy. My low, when I dropped 20 pounds a couple years ago, was 147. I would love to get back down to 147 or less. My goal is, then, 145. I was about 135 in High School, and that would be ideal but I don’t know if I could maintain it.
We’ll see if I can do it. It’s going pretty well. I just need a structure to follow, which I have with Weight Watchers, and a goal, which I have with the cruise!
I’m sitting here eating my oatmeal, which is only a point for a half cup… and I like oatmeal!
Okay I’m still learning how to use the new Digital SLR Camera I bought. Here is a picture of lunch. Don’t you like seeing a picture of Lunch? Veggie Burger at Squatters Pub Brewery. Yeah, ate too much, but that’s okay it will hold me the entire rest of the day and my weight is still slowly dropping.
So anyway I think this is still a bit blurry. I set the ISO rather high because I didn’t want to use the flash in such close quarters. If you look at the big original you can see the bun is just a touch blurry. The rest of the settings were on Automatic. Hrm.
Lunch was good, nonetheless. The Sweet Potato Fries were good, hopefully they have a lot of fiber… and maybe not so much fiber cable as I bet that’s not so good to eat!
So far I do like the camera. I like how it feels in my hands and I like the images it takes. Still, I want super clear and super sharp. So we’ll see how to manage that. I have more reading to do.
