Luna Tail

I’ve been stressed lately. Have I mentioned that? Oh probably.. I forget what I post, I have the most awful memory in the world. :p A few things that have been stressing me include our new foster dog, Titus (not really him but he does throw the pack off-kilter) going to Denmark (yes I bought tickets!), work (dang work is really a huge stressor right now), my Mom (I think I made her mad but I’m too chicken to talk to her about it), and painting my spare bedroom.

I’ll post about some of these in more detail later. Maybe I’ll buy some new breeches which might make me happy. But then again, probably not, because my weight is really up and buying clothes is not fun anymore. And as I eat this piece of chocolate… well, that doesn’t help at all.

So too much stress lately, and I have had a nasty headache all day today so I’ve spend most of the day in bed or on the couch and doing nothing. Hopefully my head will feel better tomorrow.

Tags: Anxiety, Chatter, Mental Health, Sleep, Stress

Okay, I just don’t. I wish that we could all just give ourselves money and pay off some bills or something like that this time of year. Maybe it’s because I don’t like to shop. Maybe it’s because we really don’t have much money at all this year. Maybe it’s just because I feel unmotivated lately for much of anything except for the dogs.

I have something for my nephew, I don’t have anything fgor my sister yet… we have something for my Dad. I need to get something for my Mom and for my husband. I actually have a really good idea for the husband but that would mean getting off my rear and going to the store. Bleh. I don’t have time for hardly anything and I really don’t like to spend any of that time in stores! And it’s too late to order online. Though I could get my husband’s thing online he wouldn’t care if it’s late.

I am not getting any baby strollers this year, and I haven’t gotten the dogs anything. But maybe they will get a special treat sometime. Hrm. Oh well. Another Christmas. I’d rather celebrate the winter solstice. Which is today, happy solstice!

Tags: Chatter, Holidays

Yeah… sometimes I’m too dang nice.  I try to be nice to everyone because when I was a kid, other kids were not nice to me.  And so I really think that everyone should be treated with respect.  I don’t like to bad talk anyone. I don’t like to use a mean tone of voice. I don’t like to put anyone down…

Though sometimes I do rant to my friends. Everyone needs to rant and get things off our chest! Fortunately I have some close friends and my husband to do that with. My husband can be so nasty sometimes, too, that he just makes me laugh! LOL but I won’t say how he’s nasty. He’s not nasty to me, he’s so good to me that sometimes I just have to wonder how I got so lucky.

I’m starting PMS for this month too, again, which sucks. I wish drug rehab would help with PMS… lol, but it does not. Years and year ago I went to the University of Utah PMS Clinic but I didn’t find any relief there. Bleh. I am thinking about going to a doctor on my insurance who does bioidentical hormones… I think those help me a lot. So we’ll see about that. Then maybe I’ll want to be nice again. LOL

Tags: Chatter, Cycles

I have always thought that one of things I really excel at is watching TV. LOL yeah I know I know it isn’t a profession and it’s nothing I could make money doing… well unless I was a critic but then I’d have to express my opinion about it all and that would just stress me out too and people would read my opinions and I wouldn’t know if I was ‘right’ or ‘good enough’ or whatever.

I guess TV is such a stress reliever for me because I can stop feeling altogether and just feel what the characters are feeling. And since they are not real and their emotions are not real it’s just a relief for me to follow them along and de-stress myself. Maybe I can sit in a manufactured home and just watch TV all day…

Actually I wouldn’t be able to watch TV all day long. For one, I’m rather picky about what I like and so most of the stuff on TV is just junk. and also I really love getting out and about with my dogs. I just am wishing for less stress and anxiety in life. I guess watching TV all day isn’t going to solve that, though. I hope I can find something that will.

Tags: Anxiety, Chatter

So I’ve been wondering lately why I am so tired all the time and I just want to sleep. I think I finally figured it out, not that figuring it out will really do anything to help me. LOL. Since I rush all over the place so much and I’m always in some sort of frenzy, it seems, I think I probably burn so much energy that I really want to sleep.

I keep telling myself that after I retire I’ll calm down and rest… but really I should do it now. I just don’t know how to do it at work when I’m so stressed about work all the time and that I’m really an idiot and I’m not doing a very good job. Bleh. I’d rather play with the dogs and a Canon camera and be home most of the time. I really am a home body, even though I’m out and about a lot doing the dog stuff.

Oh well. Maybe I need a plan to calm myself down and take things easy. Hrmph. Well I’m going to run a job for work then go and take a nap!

Tags: Anxiety, Chatter

There are just some things that I don’t like doing. Not only that, I’m really crappy at them too. Cleaning house is one of them. Cooking is another. And if could afford it then I would so love to be able to hire a live in maid to do these things for me! Well and a chef too, if I could. But even if I just had a live in maid to follow me around and clean up after me… dang, wouldn’t that be so nice!

I know I’m a slob and I am not good at cleaning up after myself. And I don’t like doing laundry and I don’t know how to iron.  And I have some things that I really need to have ironed… and I don’t want to take them to the dry cleaner, dangit.

Oh well, live and wish… maybe someday I’ll be able to afford to have someone clean the house again. But I doubt I’ll ever get anyone to do my laundry, iron, or cook for me on a regular basis. :p

Tags: Chatter

Okay so I’m getting pissed off that I’m not dropping any weight lately. I’ve been eating really well, sticking with Eat To Live, and it’s just not dropping off. So today I had a Tuna Sandwich and some Marzipan and cereal! Blah! I also went for a jog at lunch with Chase and Levi… I’m starting to go running again. I really do love going running. I feel better and I think it helps my muscles a lot.

So we’ll see… maybe it’s just too hard around the Holidays. I dunno. I’ll keep trying on again and off again and hope to do better in a while. And maybe the running will help me drop some pounds too. I’m up to how I was before I started loosing all the weight. And that’s more than I even want to admit to. I hate it! I liked being 147 or even 155. And I guess maybe it’s not the drugs I was on, because I stopped taking them. Maybe my set point has been reset and now I have to fight to get it back down. Or maybe I’m just getting older. I don’t know, but I really want to drop these 20 darn pounds again!

Tags: Chatter, Eat To Live, Physical Health

I do enjoy Thanksgiving. Perhaps the meaning of Thanksgiving has kinda faded away… though I like having a day to spend with the family and be thankful of having such an amazingly wonderful family. I don’t eat Turkey… but I love the rest of the food. Even though I ate way too much. I have no self control when it comes to food in front of me. But my Mom is such a great cook and there is always plenty to eat.

I like this picture of the turkey and the pears my Mom made. And the orange in the background. I guess I can get some depth of field with that lens on my camera.

We are all healthy and happy, we have affordable health insurance and our health. We have each other and we love each other and we have a good life. I am thankful for having such a wonderful family.

Tags: Chatter, Holidays

Oh geez, I slept poorly last night… well, in a poor position anyway. I have a nasty kink under my left shoulder blade. I was going to spend some time cleaning up our spare bedroom but now I’m sitting on the couch (nothing new there lol) with some aspirin in my and hoping the pain will go away.

I don’t like pain. Ugh. I didn’t even really curl up badly with the dogs, I don’t think. Jet and Levi were with me on the bed. Just them too… and they don’t take much room.

I did read some on my MacBook before bed. I downloaded some software that’s free that lets me read eBooks. Kinda like the Amazon Kindle lets you do. Amazon has windows software for netbooks now but they don’t have Mac software yet. When they do, I’ll get it, then I won’t have to spend $300 on a Kindle. I can just read it on my Mac. And it’s easy to read too!

Now back to TV and moaning…

Tags: Chatter, Physical Health

Earlier this year I bought an RCA EZ300HD CamCorder and I really like it! It’s small, has a pretty good quality video, and it’s easy to use. The settings are pretty limited but good enough for such a small toy. And it’s HD! I love HD. Sure it’s not the highest quality HD in the world. It’s only 720p, but still it’s better than my Sony Handy Cam which records to a mini DVD.

I’ve been using it, mostly, for dog training and trialing videos. The only downside is it records to AVI, and my MacBook doesn’t natively play AVI… it wants MOV files. But I was able to get a converter, Handbrake, which is free. I can convert the files to MOV and import them for use into iMovie.

So if you are looking for a fun little camcorder for Chrismtas, this is the one I recommend. It has a rechargeable battery, 2GB of internal memory, and an SD Card slot that will take up to a 16GB SD card. It fits right in your pocket or purse, too.

Anyway, I like it a lot! I have vidoes on YouTube if you want to see the quality.

Tags: Chatter, Tech