Luna Tail

Okay Yup, I’m going to change my meds. LOL. I went to a new GYN last week and I really liked her! And, bonus, she’s on my insurance! Okay wait, she’s the Nurse Practitioner, haven’t actually met the doctor, but that’s fine by me. She gave me a prescription for bio-identical progesterone. I’ve wanted to try it forever… the prescription kind. I’ve done the over the counter kind often enough, and it does help, but I’ve wanted to actually work with a doctor to see if we can get the balance just right for me.

And I’m dropping off the Zoloft. Yay! I’m sick of it. I’m sick of having my muscles feel like they have electricity going through them all the time. Yuck. It’s not fun. And I am blaming most everything on the stuff now… I can’t drop weight for the life of me. My tension in my neck. And my swollen sinuses and face. These are, actually, all side effects. So hopefully getting off it will get rid of these. I just gotta keep my PMS under control, and the associated awful anxiety. Bleh.

So it’ll take about 6 weeks to get completely changed over. We’ll see how it goes. So far, so good. Maybe I’ll get some bow ties to make myself feel pretty when I’m done. Oh wait, that’d be for the husband wouldn’t it? LOL.

Anyway, I’ll keep the world posted about how I’m doing! And for the record, I’m really not that bad. I just want to even myself out a bit. Not like my life is miserable and I’m suffering awful anxiety all the time. So maybe I just need to suck it up anyway. LOL

My husband and I went on a hike up to Dog Lake last Friday and there were some very pretty flowers. This is one of them. Yes I am capable of taking pictures of things other than dogs!

I don’t know what this is… does anyone know what kind of flower this is? Hrm… interesting. I would like to look it up but I really don’t know how. Maybe some hip hop clothing would help me out but I’m not sure about that!

On another note, I have an appointment with a new Gyn this Friday to help me out with my PMS and maybe get some bio-identical progesterone going. I need some. I think I’m suffering some side effects of the Zoloft, mainly swelling of the face and nose, and I’m reaching my limit. I also feel like I’m having electricity in my muscles and my tolerance of it is just about up. I can tolerate a lot for a long time, but eventually I can’t anymore.

Okay so I’m thinking I really do need to exercise. And I am thinking that the older I get, the more important it is going to be. Ugh. I really don’t like to exercise. Never did. Jogged for 2 or 3 years and actually was in fairly good shape when I did. But I haven’t done it for a while… it was one of those things I obsessed about and did a lot then it faded out after a couple of years. But I think I need to get back into it again.

I was on my feet the last couple of days, for hours and hours, and dang it takes to much out of me. My neck still hurts… and I have very little endurance. So I am going to attempt to be more active. Hopefully I won’t hurt myself and end up needing a lot of hospital disinfectant to get better. I will be careful. The older I get, the less strong the body is.

I’ve been going to the chiropractor for a few weeks now and I think it has helped me quite a bit. Now, though, my insurance coverage is running out and I’ll have to pay for any continuing treatment on my own. Which will get really expensive, really fast.

They went over a care plan with me today… which basically just entailed more treatments. I think 22 more. I have the paper upstairs. And I’ll have to pay for those myself and it’ll total about $2,000. Well I don’t have $2,000. I wonder if the health care reform bill will help this. LOL. I doubt it. It’s just my insurance, and they don’t really support chiropractics that much.

I wonder about continuing care… they did x-rays and they show how my spine is crooked and my neck is crooked. But I feel like I’m going to the car mechanic and I wonder how honest they are being, or if they are pulling my leg and wanting my money. And what if it doesn’t help anyway? I wish they had some female fat burner that would help…. ugh.

The muscles in my neck still hurt quite a bit. They say it’s because my neck isn’t straight and my bones are not supporting my muscles right. Sounds good to me. But still, I really don’t have that kind of money. I know that if I stopped cracking my neck, and did some decent exercises, that would probably help a lot. I just forget to stop cracking it and so do it all day long and I make it worse by the end of the day. Bleh. I hate this. I wish I had lots of money. But I just don’t. I only have enough to do my dog sports!

Okay well I am feeling pretty okay now even though I really hate the dumb time change! I hate this one quite a bit. Losing and hour and having to get up earlier is just awful. I don’t like the mornings as it is dangit!

Anyway so my ear still feels a bit funky. And the doctor called today and said I have a staph infection in my nose, too. So I’m getting an antibiotic nasal rinse for that mailed to me. Maybe I need to find the cheapest car insurance so I can pay for the darn medical stuff. Bleh. I’m still going to the chiropractor too and at $35 for a copayment, it’s not cheap.

Well hopefully the nasal rinse stuff will help my nose clear up and help me breathe. I really would like to be able to breathe at night again, out of my nose, and not my mouth!

Well I went to the Ear Nose and Throat doctor today. I made the appointment about six weeks ago. As you probably know, it’s hard to get into see specialists right away when you are a new patient. Which is odd because sometimes we need to go in NOW and not wait six weeks.

So anyway she looked in my nose (isn’t THAT just a fun job?) and said she saw swelling and I could have a deviated septum. I don’t have any drainage or gunk up there, though. But she said I could probably have the surgery where they open up and straighten out my nose stuff in there and then I could breathe better. She didn’t think I had Sleep Apnea so that’s really good. I don’t snore. And she said that’s more in the throat than the nose anyway. She gave me a nasal spray and told me to do some of the irrigation stuff. I’ve already used the spray and it’s working pretty good! Yay. But I won’t mind surgery if it helps me to breathe!

Next thing was my ear. My ear wasn’t bothering me when I initially made the appointment. It started bothering me 3.5 weeks ago after I had that bad cold. It originally felt like it wouldn’t pop, or equalize. But then it felt like I couldn’t really hear out of it. The family doctor gave me some antibiotics as she thought I might have an ear infection. That seemed to help but… two days ago, Wednesday, I was out in the cold all day at an agility seminar and yesterday my ear went bad again. Bleh. I couldn’t really hear out of it much. Today I went and got ear plugs and I plugged just my right ear, my good ear, to equalize the sound. That made life much more pleasant!

She looked in my ear and said I could have fluid in there. She sent me to the sound room and I did the hearing test with the headphones. And they also put a thing in my ear to test the pressure. My pressure is fine, and I don’t have any liquid in my ears so that’s good. However she did say I could have a nerve problem in my left ear. Which isn’t so good. My hearing is diminished in my left ear. It’s worse than my right ear anyway, though they don’t have a baseline since I’ve never had my hearing tested there before.

They don’t know why this nerve thing happens. She didn’t put a name to it, I don’t know if it has a name. They don’t know how to fix it, either. Of course. She said that people with this nerve issue, 40% of them get better without any treatment. 60% get better with Prednisone. She gave me a script for Prednisone. Bleh. I’ve never had it before. It’s a steroid and I’m not crazy about steroids but I do want the hearing in my ear to come back and the icky feeling to go away.

She said if the Prednisone doesn’t help, they will do an MRI of my head to see if there are any growths in my hear. If so they are usually benign.. but still, that wouldn’t be good either. Then after that we’d see what other options there might be.

So I don’t know what’ll happen with my ear. Worst case scenario (which she didn’t even mention lol) is that all my friends and family will have to learn sign language (I’m joking about this really hehe). Best case is that it’ll be annoying for a while then come back and I’ll be fine.

So now I feel icky and want to go shopping and buy some urban clothing to make myself feel better. Don’t clothes always make a girl feel better? I dunno. I think I’m going to sit and relax tonight. I have agility all weekend, so I’ll be on my feet and busy and I’m not really feeling up to it. But I’ll give it a try and see how it goes.

So I went to the chiropractor last week because my neck hurt so bad that I could hardly be awake and function in any way. It was awful. I was taking 3 Ibuprofen every four hours… I even learned how to spell that darn word. :p

I’m amazed at how well chiropractics work. I went for x-rays too, since they wanted to see, and I guess I’m pretty crooked and messed up. But after only two adjustments I’m already much better, yay!

I also had a massage yesterday. It hurt a bit, but in ways that I wanted and needed it. My muscles are so tight and awful… I better not try any long distance moving because that would probably make me so much worse! So I think if I get occasional massages that will help loosen me up too and get me back in shape.

So far so good!

Saying my neck hurts is an understatement. Ugh. It’s been crackling and bothering me for probably a couple of years now.. and steadily getting worse. The MRI I had on it after my car accident in August of 08 didn’t show any damage at all. So I guess that’s good. But I don’t know what would be causing the pain. I crackle it too much during the day, I know that, but now it’s habit and I don’t know how to stop it.

So Yoga on Wednesday must have done something bad because since then it’s been hurting so bad it’s been affecting my mood and everything I’m doing. Yuck! I hate it. So today I am taking it very easy. Resting my neck on a heating pad all day to hope that it will feel better tomorrow.

Hopefully it won’t kill me so we won’t need any funeral planning… lol, but I don’t think it’s that serious. But I’m having a hard time concentrating on much of anything so I think maybe today I’ll knit and listen to my audio book.

So I’m trying out Yoga Classes…. I went last night. The first time after a couple-week break since I’ve been sick, and I didn’t want to go while I was sick. This was only my third time. I like it a lot. However, dangit, it’s a lot of work!

Last night was a Yoga’s Fundamentals Class. We worked on Plank, Lunge, and Warrior Two I think… it might have been Warrior One now I forgot. But man, my arms are really feeling it. So are my thighs. And last night I could not hold the postures for as long as anyone else in the class. So I had to drop down before anyone else did. Ugh! I’m kinda embarrassed, but with practice I hope I’ll get better.

Maybe I’ll buy one of their promotional bags, t-shirts or tank tops… I already bought a Yoga Mat. That the dogs thought was something fun to chew on. I hope my husband has saved it from them.

So I’m going to keep trying it and see if maybe I can build up some strength and find some peace!

Well, I don’t know if I can really consider my ear as hurting… but there’s a dullness to it that is almost like it’s not popping. I do think, however, that I really have a high tolerance for pain and discomfort. There should be a pain scale… I bet there is, but it’s hard to say “is it 1 or 10″ because everyone can interpret that scale differently.

I’m on the antibiotics still, Augmentin, just in case I do have an ear infection. Bleh. Those are some huge giant pills. Bigger than any weight loss diet pills I have seen.

So I still think I should rest and take it easy. I rested most of the weekend. And I think I can rest the next couple of weekends as well. Then I can, hopefully, heal up and get better!