Luna Tail

Crap.. I am so out of money, and now I have to spend $20 at the DMV in order to get new plates for my old car, and a new front plate for my minivan. And I need to Order checks… because I’m running out. I don’t usually write checks anymore. Instead I use credit for most everything. Sometimes I write checks when I need to, though. Maybe one or two a month. And I like fun checks, usually I get ones with dogs or animal rescue on them. And I’m going to be looking into Vista Print for checks, as they have a coupon for checks. It’s Checks25 and it’ll give me 25% off Checks now.

Really, I have $23.00 in my checking account for spending money. That is for food and lunches and stuff like that. Fortunately it’s not for my vacation! I have more than that for my cruise… hehe. I wonder if they take checks in the western Caribbean… hrm, maybe travelers checks!

In do like Vista Print though, I’ve bought business cards from them often. And will so again. So why not checks? They have a super easy to use website. And maybe I can use my own logo… ooh that’d be cool!

Okay.. I’m back in the world of the living. I swear my PMS makes me seem like I’m a manic depressive. During PMS I’m down in the dumps, can’t get much lower… (okay I can, it’s all relative) and on the day I get my… you know what, like today, it being Day One, I feel so much happier. More patient… (waaaay more patient) more energized, and I can talk to people without feeling like I’m going to be hated or humiliated at any second.

Bleh. My drugs help, for sure, but I so wish that someone would realize that PMS is very real, and get a cure for the hormonal imbalance that it is. My Vitex Agnus Castus helps, too, so does the progesterone cream, but still, I get pretty yucky.

And… joy of the world, looks like I’ll be getting my… you know, when I’m on my cruise the end of October. Yuck. Not that it’s that big of a deal, really, it’ll just be a pain. Though having PMS on the cruise would be way worse, so I’ll take what I can get.

As for my weight… I’m at 0 loss 0 gain today. I’d lost a pound but it came back. I’ve been so strict! But now that it’s… you know what, my weight should start to drop, too, it usually does. I want to lose 10 pounds for my cruise!!!

I’m posting this from blogdesk, too, and I hope I can use this for when I’m on the cruise as I hear internet time gets pretty expensive. So I gotta make sure this works okay, so I can post pictures and make ya’ll jealous!

This is just a picture of one of the last roses outside on my rose bushes. I kinda think they are a pain… but pretty for the most part. If they died, though, I wouldn’t be too sad. Okay maybe a little.

Yesterday was a great down day and I woke up this morning feeling much better. Physically, emotionally and mentally. But as I sit here again on the couch (I seem to get stuck on the couch once I start blogging) my neck is just killing me.

I’m sure it’s still because of my car accident. I got the car back, it’s up for sale already. I hope it sells, I haven’t gotten any bites yet. But my arms still go numb when I lay on my back, or have them above my head, or sit for any length of time.. all of which must be bad. I was going to go to the neurologist last Tuesday but they put me off again until this Wednesday. I really need to go in. I’m still in a lot of pain and discomfort and I want to be better. So we’ll see how that goes.

I upgraded the memory on my VPS (server, host, whatever you want to call it) by 256Mb. I hope that helps. It’s not flash memory but regular old memory. So now I’ll have 768Mb and we’ll see if that speeds up the websites some. I might have to ask those I host for to give me a wee bit of money to cover costs. Maybe $6 or $10 every three months or so. Not really too much, just enough to help when my bill comes due.

I think I’m going to flop over and take a nap now. Sitting on the couch makes me sleepy.

I have been dreaming a lot lately. Of course now I don’t remember last night’s dream… but I wonder if it’s because I’m having PMS. I am going to have to track what day it is to see when I dream, and when I don’t.

I seem to remember lots of little critters trying to get away… or attack, someone I know. But now I’m not sure who, what, why or how. Hrm… Maybe the little dudes just needed appetizers before their full meal. I hope not! I don’t like scary dreams and that’s why I don’t read scary movies!

Anyway.. perhaps tonight I’ll remember more.

I’m having a nice lazy weekend. I like lazy weekends! I’m doing a lot of work on my blogs, which is good. Being on Weight Watchers I’ve already lost a pound in only a couple days, which is good. The Evil Husband had to go and make Chocolate Chip Oatmeal cookies, which I love, but I only picked at one yesterday so that’s good. I figure it’s not that I can’t eat them ever, I just want to lose weight so won’t eat them now. I love his cookie recipes, he is a great cook! And I have eaten his super yummy pizza. I figured all the ingredients and figured the Weight Watchers points value and it’s not too bad if I only eat one piece a day!

I’m also restoring since the server crash. Yeah, still. I think I’ve finished restoring TipTail.com, and I’ve finished restoring this blog. TatumTot.com is done, and PixieTail.com is also done. The last blog I have to restore is TailPix.com and I hope to get to that today, too.

Still I have to set up FTP (Looked into it a bit today… webmin didn’t want to work with any FTP server.. bleh) and UtahDogs.com. And I’m still not sure I have any decent backup of Utah Dogs. Another Bleh.

My goal today is to get off the couch as little as possible. But eating, drinking, and going to the bathroom are making me get up occasionally. I slept about 11 hours lasts night, so I won’t need a nap today.

I want to help save power… and I love wind power. I really like seeing the windmills in the landscape when I travel. What do you think about wind power?

Well, apparently I’m a failure when it comes to losing weight on my own. BLEH. I mean heck… I do know how to eat, don’t I? I guess not. I lost 20 pounds doing Eat To Live a couple (maybe 3) years ago now. But lately it has been coming back on. I got down to 147 at one point. Yesterday I weighed myself and I was 162. Man! What happened! If I don’t do something soon, I’ll be back up to 170 where I was before I did the Eat to Live stuff.

So I took my sister’s gumption and joined Weight Watchers again. I have got to drop this weight, it’s really starting to piss me off and my clothes are getting tighter again. Noooo!!! I also need to join back up to Leigh’s Take It Off Together Tuesday, I think.

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So today is the first day of Weight Watchers, and the weight will drop. I have this anxiety about recording my food intake. I get nervous about it and I don’t do it. Well, I just have to suck it up and do it anyway. And so here goes! My cruise is on October 25, I hope to get down to about 155 or so by then. Wish me luck!

As I was loading the dish washer the other day.. my husband there with me, kinda helping, kinda overseeing, I just had to laugh and think. I wasn’t doing it quite the way he thought it should be done. And granted, I’m not the best dishwasher loader in the world. I stack stuff together too much and sometimes it doesn’t get as clean as maybe it could.

But he was getting a little upset and I had to stand back and think that getting upset about the dishwasher being loaded is a little pointless. So I joked with him about it… and I think this is one of the reasons we get along so well. Both of us hate confrontation, we hate to fight, and we don’t like feeling angry. And so we usually let the little stuff, like how we load the dishwasher, just blow on by and we don’t worry about it.

When I’m out and about with friends and their spouses, I am sometimes surprised at the things they fight about. Really… maybe it’s time to just stop, look at what you are fighting about, let go of your ego and your desire to be ‘right’ or to get in the last word, laugh about it, appreciate your significant other, and be happy.

I heard, once, someone say.. what do you want to be, right, or married? Well, I’d rather be happy and so what if the dish washer isn’t loaded just so… or there is dog pee on the floor, or Tatum wants to ‘help’ prep the spare bedroom for painting and in doing so likes to chew up the sand paper? (Dang her toenails are too long.) I’d rather not worry about it. I want my dogs, my husband, and myself, to be happy. So as they say, don’t worry, be happy!

Man, I am getting old. I spent only three measly hours this morning sanding and cleaning two of the walls in the spare bedroom. And I am so stiff now I can hardly stand. You’d think all the dog sports I did would actually get me in better shape. Or be more flexible, anyway. But apparently not.

The first picture is before I emptied out the room and started. These last two are after I was done with the two walls. Whoever lived here before us must have smoked, because the walls are yellow and dripping. Not as bad as some I’ve tried to clean and paint over… but bad enough. Plus, whoever painted didn’t put any primer on the baseboard or the door molding. I’ve been sanding it off completely, and easily. And I just don’t know if I’ll have the gumption to sand it all off, or if I’ll just sand most of it off and call it good.

Maybe my sister will like to come help me paint once the prep work is done. Painting takes the least amount of time, though. Prep takes about 100 times longer. Oh well.. it’ll get done. I’ve been avoiding this room for almost nine years. It’s the last upstairs room to get painted (well, except the kitchen, but the kitchen is gonna be gutted so it doesn’t count). So finally I’m getting around to it.

I’m not rushing, though. I’m taking it easy and only doing what I feel like doing at one time. I don’t care if it takes me all fall, or all winter. I want to do it slowly and do it right.

Not sure what color I’m going to paint… the carpet (the only room in our house left that has carpet) is blue with grey flecks. And I don’t want either blue or grey, and I’m not sure what will match. Oh well, I’ll find something!

Ooo weird. I had a few dreams last night, I only really remember the most recent one. I was going on a cruise (I am in real life in October). And my and the man I was with (I don’t know him in real life) had three dogs with us and a lot of luggage. We were staying in a hotel for the first night before we went on the cruise, and the next day we had to be at the ship in time with all our luggage packed up and ready to go.

The dogs we had were with were two of mine, Chase and Levi, and one of his, a Dachshund, I think it was Keno, my flyball captain’s Dachshund. And I kept carrying her.. and she liked to swim, she swam through a pool… at one point in the dream.

So when it was time to get on the ship we were looking for the boat and the dock, and suddenly we realized we were really late. We found the dock and realized we had to run back to our room to get all our luggage. But then we couldn’t find our room! It was room 219 and we couldn’t find it. We asked a hotel guy and he couldn’t find it either, he had to call the desk and ask what had happened to our room. lol. And there were these weird elevators that practically threw people around. I’ve had dreams of strange scary elevators in the past, too.

Eventually the hotel guy found our room and we just saw our luggage and clothes in the hotel hallway waiting for us. But the hotel guy said we still might be too late. So then this evil vampire guy that we knew from home walked by… we were surprised to see him, he was all in black and his face was black, like Darth Mal but black, and I asked him if he would help us get our room on the ship. As they were going to assign it to someone else since we were so late.

He agreed, but only if he could sleep with me… but not really me, an asian woman who would take on the persona of me. And I said yes, and it was creepy watching him, in my dream, as he convinced this woman to take on my features and sleep with him a couple of times while he was on the ship, too.

I woke up before I knew if we made it onto the ship or not, or if there was an air purifier in the room like I’d requested. But it was a long detailed dream for sure.

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Another dream I had earlier I only remember bits and pieces of. I was at dog camp again, and my ex wanted to meet me and make up with me, and begged my forgiveness. I’ve been reading the Twilight series of books and I think this is where this, and the vampire, came from. I wanted to see what he had to say so I met a woman and she offered to drive me to the university campus, where he was. But we got lost and didn’t know where the building was, and so I had to call him but he didn’t really know where we were either.

I think there was more to that dream but now I don’t remember much. It happened earlier in the night.