Luna Tail

I did, I drove in my Dad’s Chevy Trailblazer and pulled the trailer up to Idaho Falls and back! Actually, it was cake, and I wasn’t nervous at all! Well okay, I wasn’t nervous on the way home. I was a bit nervous on the way up there.

It was fun.. this is a picture of when we got home. My Dad’s Blazer is very nice, I hope I got all the dog hair out of it… well, all that I could anyway. I do wish I had a camping vehicle like this, with the clearance, but only used for camping. If I get a minivan, which I’m thinking of doing, it might not have as much clearance as I’d like.

I contacted a lawyer today, too, about the car accident. Allstate still wants to repair my Outback. I still want a minivan. Maybe a South Carolina injury lawyer would help. I’m going to the doctor on Friday to get an opinion of my back and neck. When I was driving home my arms were going numb. And when I lay on my back my arms go numb still. Not a good thing at all.

The insurance said they will repair my car to factory specs. But I still have my doubts, and I’m not sure I’d feel safe in it anyway. And so… the car saga continues!

You know you were in a bad car accident when they estimate the damage of the vehicle at over $12,000. GADS. That’s a lot of freakin’ damage. I just found that out today.

Last Friday the shop said my car wasn’t totaled. But today they called again and they have finished estimating the damage. They put it at $12,000. (my rental car probably isn’t worth that much).

I talked to my insurance adjuster, she said if the damage to the vehicle is 80% of the value of the vehicle, they consider it totaled. The damage to my car is 75% the value of it. So Allstate (my insurance) is sending someone down to the shop tomorrow to get their opinion. The adjuster said that it is very possible that the Allstate person will find that it is actually 80% damaged and if so, then it’s totaled.

Oh joy. It freaks me out, still, that the accident was that bad. My poor car. I’m still waffling between wanting a new car, and wanting my old car back. I am liking my insurance company, though. Auto insurance comparisons are helpful too. But the real money is in how the company handles a car wreck.

So maybe I’ll know over the next few days. I guess I can have some serious things going on physically, if the car was hurt that bad. EEEEEeek.

Well, today I went to an agility trial. I had fun.. I wasn’t too excited about it. I have been having one heck of a rotten time getting up early in the mornings lately. And six o’clock comes dang early. I have something in my brain that says there is a big difference between six o’clock and seven o’clock. Seven isn’t so bad, Six is awful! Eight is even better.

Anyway… I was sitting in the ring today setting jump bars, and it’s a USDAA trial so I’m not as familiar with when to set the triple and double and table… and I’d set something and the judge, who was really on top of things, went and reset my stuff a couple of times because I didn’t get it right.

Well, my old anxiety kicks in, I feel like an idiot, I think everyone is going to hate me and think I’m stupid… and so I had to sit there with myself for a while and try to understand why I’m feeling this. Because most of the time at trials, even when I make a mistake, I don’t feel that anymore.

So I remembered yesterday and how I wasn’t feeling good all day. And I haven’t been feeling good most of the week. It could be the Isagenix… but I doubt it. I’m done with my 9 day cleanse and it went well. But I really think that I’m thrown off because of the car accident. And I have been having these rotten headaches, i have one again now, and they just don’t want to go away. Bah. I hate headaches.

So I think there is something going on with me still, be it the accident or be it just that I’m stressed and not feeling well. It’s only Day six today, so I’m in a good place hormonally. Maybe I am catching a cold… maybe I’m in a summer funk and I could use a change of weather. But I really don’t want it to get cold. I like the summer!

Tomorrow I’m getting up kinda early again, but not as early. Only about 7:30 so that’ll be good. Going to practice obedience in the morning, then come home and maybe I’ll just go back to bed. I am tired of pushing myself to the edge… I’d rather take care of myself and slow down and relax. If my body and mind are telling me to slow down, then I’m gonna slow down.

Heck, I like being slow and relaxed, so that’s what I’m gonna do!

Well, I heard from the shop today, and the good news is my car is not totaled! There is $2,000 of damage to the engine, mechanical damage. They will probably have to take the engine out and replace a left rail or something.. I don’t know much about cars!

I didn’t know this was such a weight on me until it lifted today. I’ve been looking around for cars even! Thought maybe a minivan would be better for me, but I do love my Outback and I want to keep it for 10 more years! Hopefully it is done being in wrecks. Bah. This is the worst one of the three it’s been in in it’s short four years of life. The darn car is only a 2004. And isn’t too high in mileage either. It has maybe about 48,000 miles on it or so.

Maybe I need some new picture frames so I can take pictures of my wrecked car. Or better yet, my repaired car. It is a pretty car, and I do like it very much! I don’t know when the repairs will be done, but maybe it’ll be ready for when I go to St. George in September. I sure hope so!

Well I think I’m starting to come out of my car crash funk. Bleh. I hate car crashes. I got a rental car today, a Saturn Ion. It’s okay, cheap little buggar. I miss my climate control and my heated seats and my automatic everything on my Subaru Outback. But it’ll get me by for a while.

My GPS came today.. well, it’s at home. I love electronic deals and I can’t wait to go and play with it! I have a chiropractor appointment tonight in a bit, so I have to do that before I get home. But he’ll check me out. My head aches are still pretty bad. A personal injury lawyer replied to my online help request, said they won’t even take a case until I exceed $3,000 in medical bills. Oh well, I doubt that will happen.

But dangit, I don’t want to have to buy a new car. I’d probably get another Outback… but I’d also consider a Volvo wagon. Depends on the cost. We really can’t afford a new car right now, with car payments. If only our house was paid off. We only have $28,000 left on the dang house! Bleh again!

I had a good read last night and fell asleep about 8:30ish. It was nice, I didn’t die getting up this morning, either. Usually I detest getting up in the mornings. And Tatum slept with me all night, which was very sweet indeed!

I’m having a rotten time of it this time. The last two rollovers I recovered from pretty quickly, I think. And the time we hit the whole freakin’ herd of deer. Even though we had all the dogs in the car that time, and the trailer behind us. Good Crap. My poor unlucky car. I never got in a wreck with my 1990 Toyota Pickup. Maybe I need another one of those.

I’ve been Entresurfing a bit using their new Entrebar. Nice thing that is. Keeps me from thinking. I want to go home and read my book some more. I’m actually reading a real live book. I haven’t done that in a long time. I’ve been listening too books on CD but I thought a real reading book would be nice for a change. It’s a Robin McKinley book, and I do love her. Dragonhaven. Started off pretty slow but it’s good now and I want to go see how it works out!

So now I get to force myself to drive home… I’m going to get a rental car tomorrow. Oh joy. I hate rental cars. I have no bond with them.

Well, I cried my way into work this morning. I got in really late, and as I was in the shower I realized I was putting off the drive ’cause I really didn’t want to drive into work today. The same way as the wreck last Friday.

Yesterday I worked from home, so I didn’t have to go anywhere, that was nice. This morning I cried all the way from home to 100 S where the accident happened, afraid that someone was going to appear out of nowhere and hit me. Ugh.

I made it to work okay. And I decided to get a rental car. I am in my husband’s car for now, but I am going to need a car of my own. He goes out and does work for his old job sometimes and if the dogs need to go to the vet, he’ll need a car. Plus, I’m going to Idaho Falls in a couple weeks, pulling the trailer up, and I’ll need something that can pull the trailer. And the other lady’s insurance just better pay for the whole dang rental!

Still no estimate on my car, though. Hopefully later today.

Today I just want to sit home and hide. Actually, I wish I could do it all week. The car accident is really sinking in now. Last night I laid in bed and practically shook… cried, and was miserable, not able to think of anything other than being in the crash. And today my back and neck are hurting quite a bit.

I’m working from home today so fortunately I don’t have to go anywhere. Maybe I should take tomorrow off work completely. Bleh. But I want to get the car top carrier back to my friend, as I borrowed it from her. But I don’t want to talk to anyone, see anyone, and for goodness sake, I really don’t want to drive anywhere. But I so love working with my dogs…

Maybe I just need to sit around and shop, I want a GPS unit, that would be fun to buy to comfort myself! I’ll go check out the best buy for a GPS.

Tomorrow they’ll hopefully give me an estimate on the cost of the car repairs. I hope it’s not totaled. I can’t afford a new car right now. We’d probably just have the one for a while if my outback is history.

Anyway, I’m on the couch with my dogs around me… and I so love their comfort. I’m glad we are all okay. CRAP why another car wreck? It sucks!

First off thanks everyone for their concern and well wishes for me after my car accident. I tend to downplay things right off… saying I’m fine, all is well, and then I have to realize it’s okay to be human and it’s okay if I’m not all that strong. I went to the chiropractor yesterday after my accident to get checked out. He took a number of x-rays and it did seem to whack my back and neck out of alignment. Today I have a nasty head ache and I bet it’s related. Yesterday my upper back hurt quite a bit after the adrenaline wore off, and my shoulders had pain radiating in them.

This morning my Mom and Dad came and picked up Me and my Husband and took us to Sterling Auto Body, who will be doing the repairs. This is the third time they’ve had my poor car in their shop… first was when we hit the whole freakin’ herd of dear about 2 or so years ago. Second time was when someone hit my rear end when I was at a flyball tournament and then drove away, no note no anything. And this is the third. My poor Subaru Outback, only a 2004, has really had some awful luck in it’s lifetime!

Not to mention me. Two rollovers (only one was my fault lol) and now this. Each time I go through an intersection, now, I’m freaked out and I get some awful anxiety and I have to slow down and look both ways. Thank goodness this afternoon I get to stay home and just take care of myself. I need a playstation 3 to forget about the wreck. I will probably have dreams about it in a day or two… sometimes it takes a couple days for things to sink in.

Otherwise, I’m okay. Stressed, tired, not feeling too hot, but getting by. I’ll try to reply to everyone’s comments soon! My friend Marie’s Husband said, after looking at the pictures, that he’s gonna get an outback! LOL my car did hold up well… and her’s was pretty bad. I do love my Outback. I do hope it’s not totaled. They don’t know yet. They don’t have time to start working on it until Tuesday. Ugh!

Dangit… I hate car wrecks. Especially when they are my own car… and my own person, involved. Coming in to work this morning (I knew I shouldn’t have been early!) on 700 E a lady ran the red light on 100 S and I slammed into her. There was a witness, too, and so the cops immediately gave the other lady a citation.

I am okay, she was okay. She had some scratches on her hand and was bleeding. Some guys pulled her out of her SUV through the driver side window. Which the EMT, later, said was a bad idea and they should have waited for them. Which I understand because if she would have been injured that could have caused more injuries. But I wouldn’t have wanted to be stuck in that car either.

I think I’m okay.. though I think my neck was better this morning when I woke up, than it is now. I guess time will tell. My husband came by and picked me up and drove me into work. Needless to say, I have no desire to work anymore today. But I’m the only one here to cover, so I’ll stick around for a while. Plus, sitting at home brooding about it wouldn’t help at all.

When I get into wrecks and things (I’ve been in two rollovers… I thought that was enough for one lifetime!) I go into ‘take care of it’ mode. And I do. I already called the insurance and was polite to the lady. Now.. I’m kinda going into ‘freak out’ mode. Thinking if the timing had been off even just a little bit, she could have slammed into me, drivers side, and I could have been seriously injured… but I don’t really want to think about that.

After my second rollover about 7 years ago I wandered around for a couple of days wondering if, really, I was dead and just didn’t realize it yet.

The white car up top, the Outback, is mine. See the smashed front… though I was far away when I snapped these with my camera phone. The red SUV is hers. You can probably see the scraping on her roof. She rolled.. but when I saw I couldn’t avoid her, I slammed on the breaks, closed my eyes, and held on. I didn’t see the roll, just the after affects.

Dangit… not a good way to start a Friday, but I’m glad it is Friday, I can go home and relax this weekend. No dog sports, either.