I have no fulfillment center in my life right now but I do have work. And I wonder if I have too high of a frustration tolerance. That just means that I can tolerate frustration quite a bit. You might think I don’t tolerate frustration well since I have very little patience and want what I want when I want it and that is usually NOW.

But when it comes to work and various other parts of my life I can put up with a whole heck of a lot of crap before I blow my top. And my Zoloft, of course, makes it so I hardly get mad at all anymore.

Well I think I’ve reached my frustration tolerance max with work. I think I realized, after 10 years, that I really don’t like programming. It’d tedious and there is so much detail.. it’s like staring at the computer screen all freakin’ day long and going through letters and numbers with a fine tooth comb. Bleh. I’m sick of it.

Not that I can do anything about it.  I have four years before I can retire. And I love my coworkers. And I know this is a good job. I’m just having problems lately having to work at all. I should be an artist living on the street doing what I love. But instead I’m stuck in a stupid cubicle day in and day out and I really am tired of it.

Bleh. Oh well. Work was a pain today because my pager didn’t go off when it should have.  So I’m cranky and feeling like an idiot and a failure. But I feel like that a lot at my job so no surprise there.

Oh well, is it lunch time yet?

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Oh and do I feel better? I think I do. I think it’s going to be a slow road, however. And I probably need to exercise soon, even if I’m still tired and not feeling well. I have been sedentary for so long now that I really am loosing stamina and strength. So an easy exercise program should be in the making, even if it’s just walks around the neighborhood.

I’m still having cravings for food in the evenings. I don’t think I’m hungry, and it’s not really for just sugar or just salt or fat that I’m craving. I just want to sit down with a nice cup of hot cocoa or some chips or something. Not sure if I’ll ever get over that. And the desire is so strong that it can be overwhelming sometimes. Bleh. It’s amazing how intense cravings can be.

So I have an appointment with the doctor in a couple more weeks. I’m sticking with this, and doing a good job of being strict, no matter how boring or frustrated I get. I have cheated twice in 12 days which, I guess, isn’t really that bad since they were tiny things. So I guess I should be proud of myself!

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So far he’s planted peas. It’s still cold, I think the potential for frost is still around until sometime in May.  But peas can handle the frost and they grow pretty fast. And we both love peas.  He also wants to plant kohlrabi and some other things. And some herbs. Maybe we’ll get some basil going and we can make pesto. YUM. I love pesto, it’s my favorite food in the whole entire world. Though not sure if I can consider a sauce, a food, buy why not.

So spring is in the air, yahooo…. a garden will be fun!

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I don’t have any vacations planned, though, until September. Going to Dog Camp again, that’ll be fun. Well, I have flyball trips planned, though, those will be fun but I don’t really consider them vacation. Maybe I should!

I love shopping in the spring… for clothes, Sferra sheets for the bed… and of course dog supplies. But I don’t really have money, and so I’m going to wait for a while and not buy.. gotta make some more money niche blogging. I plan on posting about that soon too!

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So I’m ready to spend the big bucks! I transferred a whopping $30.00 into my account, and I’m willing to by an entire 10 shares of Fanny Mae Stocks! Okay okay, at $0.40 cents a share, that’s really not that much money. LOL $8.00ish including the $4.50 per trade fee. So here I go, joining the online trading market!

Why Fanny Mae? Well, I think they are pretty secure because the government can’t let them fail. Not only because it’s so huge in the USA. Also, 10% of China’s GDP is invested in Fanny Mae. Weird, huh? Fanny Mae was up to $68.00 a share back in 2007, so there’s actually some potential here to make some money!  If the shares go up to, say, $40 a share, my 10 shares would be worth $400! Maybe with that I could afford some wedding invitations! Not that I’m going to need any… lol

And I figure the worse that can happen is the value goes down even lower. But it can’t go any lower than $0.40 cents lower at this point.  LOL can stocks have a negative value?

I don’t know anything about the stock market, actually. It’s just too tempting to go and buy some of these cheap stocks and see what happens. I won’t trade a lot. I’ll just buy and sit on them.  Maybe 10% of my GDP will end up in stocks… LOL.  Or maybe that’d be my GPP… Gross Personal Product.

I’m also thinking of buying some stocks in Citigroup, because they have tanked. And they are just over $1.50 per share now. And maybe some stocks in solar energy, too.

I have a whole $30 to spend, I’m one of the big spenders now! 

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So here is a poll and I’d love to hear your feedback! Thanks!

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Having a solid plan of action is a critical element of earning blogging money. And, it’s supposed to be pretty easy, in the log run! So I’m starting with a solid plan, and as things progress, I’ll be posting about it here on this blog.

I think in the past I’ve just wanted to put a blog up and hope that the money will start to roll in! It takes more than that… and so I went about finding a plan of action so I can earn as much money as possible from my blogs. So far, I only make a couple of hundred dollars a month. And I’d love to make a couple of thousand dollars instead.

So I’ve been reading a lot about a program called “The Niche Blogger!” Many blogs have been talking about this, saying it’s the best source they’ve found. It’s a complete program that was put together to help new people get their own start in blogging. And I figured what I was doing wasn’t really working well, so I wanted to find a mentor or model who is already a successful niche blogger.

I’ve been told this program will cut down the time it takes me to learn how to make money blogging and help me to avoid mistakes that will keep me from making money. Though I’ve also read that joining the Niche Blogger means I will have to dedicate myself to it. Which I’m excited to do!

There are so many different methods to earning money blogging that it’s easy to get lost in, and fall prey to, other methods that don’t really work. And it’s hard to find the model that actually does work. But finding the model that does work is exciting, and will help me (and you?) succeed!

I realize that even though I can start earning pretty quickly, I won’t become rich overnight. However I really hope to make a couple thousand a month so that I can pay off my mortgage faster! I’ve already seen some income trickling in from my blogging money.. and I really hope that in the next few months I’ll be able to make at least a good part time income from my blogs. Maybe even full-time income…? But we’ll have to see! After I get my blogs set up, it should be a relatively passive income. The cool thing about having blogs up is that they are 24 hour a day, seven day a week, “salespeople.”

I’m really doing this in case I get laid off. Though I hope I won’t, in this awful economy there is always the risk. So if I can make some blogging money I can have extra income to pay off the mortgage, or if I do get laid off, I’ll already have established blogs to become a full-time blogger.

By following the The Niche Blogger instructions, and dedicating myself to it until I am successful, I have confidence I’ll succeed. I’ve only been participating in it for about four or five days, and I’ve already discovered amazing information that is very impressive! Things I never knew before about blogging and the web, and I know a lot about the web!

I hope that I’ll look back on the moment I decided to become a niche blogger a year from now and know that it was one of the best decisions I have ever made. I’m actually very excited. The strategies I’ve learned so far were an amazing surprise!

I look forward to making some nice blogging money and having some awesome passive income! I’m all for passive income!

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Yup, once again I am suffering from a bad night of sleep.  Maybe it’s been adding up, too. I don’t know. But it’s not any fun at all, and I’m feeling very flaky and light-headed, as though I just didn’t get enough oxygen when I was asleep last night.

Ugh.

I still wonder about the sleep apnea… but I think I’m going to finally give in and do what the doctor told me to.  For starters.  Taking the Nasacort and Allegra and see if that helps.  I guess it could be allergies… but I still rebel against that idea.

Talking to a coworker who is on a C-Pap machine for sleep apnea, his symptoms pre-C-Pap seem similar to mine. My nose seems clogged solid, not like when I’m sick and it’s running.  Afrin does work, but it’s too addictive to use on a regular basis.  It worked for him, too. He says the C-Pap machine keeps his nose clear and drained and he feels better during the day.  And since my husband and I have separate bedrooms, he doesn’t know if I gasp for breath in the middle of the night. I swear I feel like I do, though.

So I dunno. I guess I should do what the doctor orders first.  So I’ll try the drugs for a month and see if they help any.  Bleh. I just really hate taking drugs every single day, and with the potential of the rest of my life.  I really don’t like that at all!

Today I feel oxygen deprived, can’t really hold a thought in my head very well, and I’m so tired I just want to go back to sleep.

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Poop, Crap, Yuck… every bad word you can imagine!  I have to take my laptop into the shop, and I really don’t want to.  Bleh.  It’s going to be a super huge pain to be without my laptop for who knows how many days…

I will probably take it in this week. My vista laptop is no longer recognizing it’s own wireless network card. And I assume that to fix this, they will have to wipe the hard drive. I do have everything backed up though so hopefully it won’t be too bad to reinstall apps when I get it back. Bleh.

From what I’ve read on the web about this problem with Pavillion Notebooks, most likely the motherboard will have to be replaced. Because the wireless network card is built in to the motherboard.  Sometimes the laptop will detect the card, but mostly it won’t.  So from home I’m plugged in by cable. From work I won’t have my laptop at all, I’ll just have my work PC.  Hrmph.

Well, I hope to get the laptop back quickly. I’m going to call HP first and see if they can walk me through a problem. Wish me bunches of luck.

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