Luna Tail|Lunacy, Crabiness, Life

So today is my first day working again. I’m working from home (taking a break lol) and getting some things done. I just hate working after being sick. I feel worthless, like an idiot, and terribly guilty about being sick.

Plus, this sick just does not want to go away and I’m really afraid it’s going to come back again, with a vengeance, like it has in the past. Doctor appt is June 15th. Maybe they can see me sooner, though. I’m on their cancellation list so we’ll see.

Anyway, along with the guilt, I feel like I’m not good enough, not smart enough, takes me too long to find answers to problems, and I just want to run under a rock and hide.

I guess the answer to this is to just do my best and work all week as hard as I can. Though stress and shame usually activate my avoidance patterns instead of my work hard patterns.

Oh on a good note, just got a call from the doc! They can get me in on the 10th now, instead of the 15th. Yay! It’s not much, but it’s closer to the present!