Apr 25 2009
What Else Can I Have?
So I’ve been reading up about Fibromyalgia and Lyme and also Epstein-Barr, which is the Virus behind Mono. And it seems like there might be some kind of link. I’m not sure what, there’s a mess of information and none of it really solid, but it’s there.
I really don’t want to have Fibromyalgia… it seems like it’s the diagnosis doctors give when they can’t figure out what a person really has… is this true? I don’t know much about it. I’ve been looking, but my brain doesn’t want to read much, it just wants to sit and watch TV so that’s mostly what I’ve been doing. But I’ve also read it’s an auto-immune disease? Hrm. That doesn’t sound fun.
I’m taking care of myself, maybe I could use a microdermabrasion for my skin. I’ve been using lotion on my feet, gads they are rough after the flyball tournament.
My husband thinks I’m just being a hypochondriac… but you know, usually every spring and every fall I get this dark blek that just falls over me. And it takes me way longer than it should to recover from dog sports. And my throat hurts today, and I have a headache too. And I slept until noon. Well, I stayed in bed until noon. It’s hard to sleep when Tatum is scratching on my bedroom door, wondering why I am in there and she is not. 
She is such a silly goof, I just adore her.
Anyway, I am not a person to play sick. Sure I don’t really like working much, but I love playing with my dogs, and I know the latter depends on the former. And I love to work in the yard and on my house and I really have no reason at all to play sick to get out of things. I don’t! I love doing things and I love my dogs and I want to train my dogs.
So I will trust what my body is telling me (or try to anyway) and go to a new doctor who knows something about FM and maybe they can help me out. I have a place to call on Monday when the work week starts up again.
I am going through a VERY similar situation and I know how frustrating it can be. I too am going through a bunch of unexplainable ailments and it’s been hard to convince others that I am actually serious and not making it up on my own.
Somedays I feel hopeless and I have actually been putting my health on the back burner and haven’t told anyone about my ailments in a while. I probably shouldn’t, but when you’re in the middle of nowhere, going to college, and have no car finding the right doctor is hard and frustrating.
Hope everything works out!
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