Luna Tail|Lunacy, Crabiness, Life

Ahhh… yes, here they are.  To be blunt, got my period this morning and I can already feel the hormones equalizing and righting themselves.  It’s an amazing feeling, actually. On my pre-zoloft days I could lay in bed and just feel my body getting better, like pleasant drugs coursing through my body and making me feel better.

The next three or so days I’ll keep equalizing until I’m back to normal and a regular human again.  However I’ll still worry… I have realized that my PMDD was extra bad this month because my job might be in danger. 20 years with the State of Utah… 5 years to retirement, and the legislature might cut so many funds that my position has to be cut. If that happens, I will freak out.

I’ll get any job with the State to reach my five years so I can get my pension and then just retire.  I don’t even care what it is. I can do just about anything, and I’ll go back to the welfare office if I have to. If there are jobs. Which there should be, because so many people will be out of work they’ll be on welfare! Ugh!

Anyway… so I am feeling better, and yet the stress is still there. I long for they day I won’t have to worry anymore!