Jan 10 2009
It’s A Really Bad PMS Month
Sad Creature
Ugh, I am having a super bad PMS day… err, maybe month. Who knows. Been stressed about the job and possible layoffs in the State. I’ve worked for the State of Utah for 20 years now. I can retire in 5, if I can make it that long. I sure hope so. I’m still one of the lowest paid people, too, which might be a good thing. I dunno.
We also have been doing collie rescue again and I probably shouldn’t. I’m am so unreliable when I’m having PMS. I feel like my entire body is being pricked all over, it’s quite unpleasant. My whole skin just tingles with pricks of pain. My head hurts. I feel like a complete idiot and that everything I do is wrong. Not only wrong, but is the stupidest thing anyone could ever do in the world. I want to hid under a rock and not come out for a week.
I feel like no matter what I do, I fail. No matter what I try, nothing works. I feel tons of anxiety that just seeps into my skin and into my very soul.
It’s hard to describe in words. This little picture is kinda how I feel. But worse. I just want to go to bed. I get hyper sensitive and my messy house bugs me to no end, but then I feel too miserable to do anything about it. I don’t want to deal with any people, I’m completely phobic of the telephone, and I just want to watch TV and snuggle with the dogs. Oh, and I have zero patience.
I’m on my Zoloft, taking magnesium and calcium. Also taking my Vitex Agnus Castus and Fem-Balance. But I think the stresses this month are putting me over the top dispite all the meds and herbs. So here I sit today… going to a friend’s Birthday party tonight though I might not stay long. I wonder if she’d hate me if I called in sick? :p UGH bleh I feel like I’ve been run over by a steam roller. 
Maybe I’ll go and take a nap.
i can get those kind of days, too..i don’t have a cycle per se since i had surgery to stop it, but that didn’t/doesn’t stop the pms symptoms…then i guess we might be getting perimenopausal. it’s hell all around…there are days i feel extremely depressed and some days the slightest thing will irritate me. my body will swell and ache…just feel crappy. have you tried talking to doctor? hang in there…hope it gets better for you soon.
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thanks Ciara… yeah, one of those days. I have heard too that surgery doesn’t make the PMS symptoms go away. Maybe someday they’ll find something that really helps us!
I’d never hate you and don’t blame you for calling in sick. Oddly enough I have been crampy all day and finally clued in to why I have been such an emotional bitch all week. Poor Paul has been dealing with me pretty well though! I kinda wanna call in sick and just put “30″ behind me. It’s been a miserable birthday for me! Guess I am not able to do that though. I think when it’s your birthday party you are kinda required to be there!
We’ll miss ya lots and hope you will be feeling better tomorrow for flyball practice!
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Have you found the sourse of the anxiety? You may want to consider a different set of meds if they aren’t helping.
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Hi Leigh… my meds help a lot. I was a complete mess before I started them. And, of course, I have to remember to take them and my vitamins!