Others Seem More Important than Me
Filed Under (Daily Posts) by Cynthia on Nov 13, 2008 10:32 pm
Tagged Under : Anxiety, Chatter, Mental Health, Physical Health
Hrmph. I am pissy tonight. I am not going to go into detail because, well, just because. But tonight as I sit here on the couch and Lucy is hacking up water… regurgitating water, and my husband snapped at me, and I’m tired and I ate crappy today… I feel like other people feel like their needs are more important than mine, and I want to get my own needs met.
Suffice it to say that I, also, am not sure what I want to do about the situation. Because I can say no, I know that I can. But I don’t know if I want to do this thing more than I want to do something else… like take care of myself and give myself something. Because I do want to do both, but I want to do them on some different days next week.
Cryptic enough for you? LOL… well, I refuse to write anything in my blog that hurts other people’s feelings and so I will be cryptic and change the names of the innocents… although, there really aren’t any innocent adult humans left in this world.
I hate it when Lucy regurgitates water. She drinks, and we don’t catch her, and it comes back up. And then Chase was doing some choking thing too and I don’t know what to do about that either. So I feel helpless and tired and my neck hurts and I just CAN’T stop cracking it because I forget that I’m doing it and I get home and realize it hurts from cracking but how can I stop doing something I don’t even know that I’m doing?
So it’s a crappy evening and I want a relaxing weekend but I don’t know how much relaxing and meditating and down time I’ll get and I’m realizing my down time is as important, if not more so, than my up time. I need it for my own mental and physical health.
So that’s my cryptic story for the day. 
On this day..
- Underwear - 2007
- Spot Film - 2006
- Up and Down and Cravings - 2006
OMG Cyn I hope you feel better. I hope I didn’t do anything last night to upset you! It was really fun to see you and miss tatum!
Sorry you’re having a bad night! I hope that whatever decision you come to makes you feel better. I have a hard time telling people “no”, but sometimes you need to for your own well being. I think if they really care about you, they’ll get over whatever disappointment they might feel.
Maries last blog post..Wordless Wednesday 11-12-08
That was even confusing for me LOL. but really, I hope you feel better, something must be going around cuz I am kinda poopy these days. too. Oh, I told Dad to get us Alta Ski lift tickets for xmas – you and I need to go!
Chriss last blog post..It has begun!
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