My Body Is A Wreck
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Cynthia on Oct 1, 2008 7:08 pm
Tagged Under : Car, Physical Health
I went to the doctor today.. finally. The neurologist. To check me out since I had my car accident back on August 1st. When I was filling out the history, and all my symptoms, it just made me realize how awful I do really feel and how my body needs some serious fixing.
My arms keep going numb on me… all the way down to my hands. So does my left leg if I’m sitting wrong. I have pain from the base of my skull down to my upper back. My lower back hurts when I bend or pick things up. My whole upper body feels tense, my muscles feel all tight. My face feels tight too. I keep getting head aches off and on. And I also get nausea off and on.
I just generally don’t feel well. He signed me up for some physical therapy and he gave me some drugs. The drugs are for neurological pain but they are also an antidepressant and I don’t really want to take them, especially since I already take Zoloft. I’m going to call them and double check. I get intimidated and don’t ask as many questions as really I should. The doctor looked straight in my eyes and was nice, though a bit intimidating.
I get an MRI a week from Friday. Never had one before, so we’ll see how that goes. And I need to find a physical therapsit. Maybe I’ll call the lawyer and ask around at work. Part of the PT will be massage.. so that’d be wonderful! I think I could really use some of that.
I was feeling guilty while I was there… I don’t like to be sick, or incapacitated. Like most people, I think. I feel like no one will believe me unless I have symptoms that others can see. I also feel like I’m trying to mooch off the doctors or whatever. Really I’m a fairly honest person… though I also feel like I deserve some compensation for the accident and all the crap that has come along with it. It really sucks that life can be going along just fine, and WHAM all of a sudden some lady runs a red light and you slam into her and life changes.
The doc wasn’t too pleased that I’m going on a cruise that will have a lot of activity in a few weeks. But he said if it hurts me, we’ll just have to fix me up again after. I can’t not go on the cruise! I don’t feel bad enough to cancel the cruise. I’d have to feel pretty bad for that!
Well I’m going to watch some TV and wish I had some appetite suppressants to keep me from eating. I have eaten 22.5 points today where I’m only supposed to eat 21. I had the munchies bad. yesterday I ate 18, which was quite good! Now time to relax and drink some no calorie tea and snuggle with the pups.
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“I feel like no one will believe me unless I have symptoms that others can see.”
Back pain is one of those things that people don’t believe much because it can’t be seen, but it’s very very real and can be incapacitating at times, bring you to your knees.
I totally understand how you feel, back pain and back issues have plagued me my whole life, so I know how you feel.
The reason they give you antidepressants is because people with back pain quickly become depressed when doing all the simple every day things we do and take for granted, can’t be done by us anymore because it hurts very badly to do them.
But do as the doc says, take your meds, get plenty of rest, don’t over-do things, and go to physical therapy as many times as the doc says to.
PT can make a world of difference in how quickly you heal and feel.
I hope you get to feeling better soon, take it easy and get some rest.
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Ouch; I hurt just reading that! I know what you mean about feeling guilty; hurt my back on the job once and even though about 4 people saw me do it and my boss took me to the doctor, I felt like the six weeks I was off work was ‘cheating’. Thought the doctor thought I was faking, too. All that added to the pain!!
I’m glad you got some meds and are still going on the cruise; you’re right: you can’t NOT go! {{Hug}}
Ughh! I hate going to the doctor too! I avoid it at all costs. Funny though, I don’t think that other people should not go to the doctor. Silly how we have a doublestandards that way.
Anyway, I hope the meds he gave you do the trick and that you’re feeling good for the CU Seminar this weekend!
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I really hope the Doc can help you figure out what is going on! Sorry to hear you still are not feeling well.
Wishing you much luck in finding out what’s wrong. Hopefully the drs can help you.
Take care of yourself.
Angel
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I also hate going to the doctor but its better that you hurry and have a proper check up then its too late. I wish you all the best and do take some rest.