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Not Feeling to Hot

Filed Under (Anxiety, Daily Posts, Health) by Cynthia [More Me!] on Aug 9, 2008 9:06 pm

Tagged Under : Anxiety, Chatter, Physical Health

Well, today I went to an agility trial. I had fun.. I wasn’t too excited about it. I have been having one heck of a rotten time getting up early in the mornings lately. And six o’clock comes dang early. I have something in my brain that says there is a big difference between six o’clock and seven o’clock. Seven isn’t so bad, Six is awful! Eight is even better.

Anyway… I was sitting in the ring today setting jump bars, and it’s a USDAA trial so I’m not as familiar with when to set the triple and double and table… and I’d set something and the judge, who was really on top of things, went and reset my stuff a couple of times because I didn’t get it right.

Well, my old anxiety kicks in, I feel like an idiot, I think everyone is going to hate me and think I’m stupid… and so I had to sit there with myself for a while and try to understand why I’m feeling this. Because most of the time at trials, even when I make a mistake, I don’t feel that anymore.

So I remembered yesterday and how I wasn’t feeling good all day. And I haven’t been feeling good most of the week. It could be the Isagenix… but I doubt it. I’m done with my 9 day cleanse and it went well. But I really think that I’m thrown off because of the car accident. And I have been having these rotten headaches, i have one again now, and they just don’t want to go away. Bah. I hate headaches.

So I think there is something going on with me still, be it the accident or be it just that I’m stressed and not feeling well. It’s only Day six today, so I’m in a good place hormonally. Maybe I am catching a cold… maybe I’m in a summer funk and I could use a change of weather. But I really don’t want it to get cold. I like the summer!

Tomorrow I’m getting up kinda early again, but not as early. Only about 7:30 so that’ll be good. Going to practice obedience in the morning, then come home and maybe I’ll just go back to bed. I am tired of pushing myself to the edge… I’d rather take care of myself and slow down and relax. If my body and mind are telling me to slow down, then I’m gonna slow down.

Heck, I like being slow and relaxed, so that’s what I’m gonna do!