Luna Tail

I am selfish now. Okay.. maybe compared to other completely selfish people, you can’t call me selfish. When I was seeing my therapist a year or so ago, I told her I was being selfish and she just laughed at me. Told me that no, I am not selfish, even though I might think I am for myself.

Why do I say I’m selfish now? Well, because I spent so many years, many many many years, living for someone else… usually a dysfunctional man, being codependent, that I didn’t do anything for myself. And now, I really feel like it’s all about me.

I do my own dog sports. I watch the TV shows and movies I want to watch. I travel when I want, clean my house when I want, go outside when I want, stay indoors when I want… and basically just do what I want to do.

Of course I do want to make sure everyone else around me is okay with it… LOL maybe that’s why I’m not truley selfish. And I really don’t like doing things like plumbing fixtures and home improvement, I prefer if my husband does them. But still, I really love living for me and making sure my own needs are met.

And my dogs fill my maternal instincts very well. I do hope my husband thinks I’m not too terribly selfish now. Because I do love him and want him to be happy, too. But for the most part, I love being selfish, and I’m going to keep at it!

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