I Fight with Myself
Filed Under (Anxiety) by 
Cynthia on Mar 6, 2008 4:45 pm
Tagged Under : Anxiety, Mental Health
One of the things I want to change about myself is how much I fight myself on things.
Like what.. you may ask? Well, when it’s time to empty the dishwasher.. part of me says to just go do it. The other part, the fighting part, complains and whines and fills up with anxiety and fights against doing it.
Same goes with washing clothes (well, putting clothes away is worse than washing clothes), cooking, shopping, going upstairs while I’m being comfortable watching TV… and the worst one of all is work.
I really resent having to work for a living. I know, I know… ever living being has to do something to provide for shelter, food, and those things necessary to live. However, I don’t want to do it! I don’t want to work anymore… I want to play. I have some years left before I can stop working so I better just suck it up and work anyway, which I am doing.
But it’s annoying, fighting with myself all the time. Maybe I need some sort of strategy to get rid of this. I do know it’s tied to my general anxiety and social anxiety too. Which I am covering with meds, but I do have some more to deal with. Hrmph. I just wish I had some nice land where I could relax and play with the dogs, maybe some Branson property, in the middle of nowhere… and a housekeeper and a cook too!
| 3.1 |
Loading ...
Don’t try to think about a lot of things but try to concentrate on the matter U are about to start. That will make U do better i guess….
Don't try to think about a lot of things but try to concentrate on the matter U are about to start. That will make U do better i guess….
I guess first thing we need to do is being honest when doing something..with this in our head, there won’t be any problems..
I guess first thing we need to do is being honest when doing something..with this in our head, there won't be any problems..