Luna Tail

Well.. just a short post, I’m actually in Las Vegas Nevada at a Flyball Seminar. I took Chase and Tatum with me. I won’t, most likely, have very much internet access while I’m here. If I do I will probably post on Tip Tail, my dog blog, to post pictures and things.

We are staying in a townhouse and we are hoping to have a good time!

Uuggggh. I’m terrible. If there is food in front of me, I will eat it. I am compelled to eat it. Doesn’t matter how full I am, how fatty it is, how many calories or anything. I swear… I just will eat it if it’s in front of me.

We went to lunch today for my coworkers birthday. Macaroni Grill. It was really good. I got a salad… but the bread, oh the bread! It was so good, dipped in oil and balsamic vinegar. I had too much. And then my friend had to go and get dessert and that was good too. And how can you just leave a few bites of cake sitting on the table? I just can’t I just can’t!

And so I ate way too much. I’m so much better if there is no food in front of me. Then I can resist what isn’t there. But I just ate and ate at lunch. The good thing is I’ll not be hungry tonight so I won’t eat much. Maybe some steamed asparagus or something. I have some at home. They are good. I don’t even want to know how many points I must have eaten!

Oh, I had a beer, too. Ugh.

I just remembered my dreams from last night. Though only portions. The first part of the night I kept hoping I would fall asleep since I’m not taking Trazodone anymore… and I realized, when the dogs woke me up to go out, that I was sleeping while thinking that. Very odd.

I was also in my ex’s sister’s old house. Well, they never owned a house like this. Similar, but the one in my dream was really big. Lots of old furniture around and old clothes, including a corset on a mannequin. I kept getting lost and I was looking for the ex in this house… the attic was full of boxes. But the attic was open so if you looked up, about 4 or so stories up in to the attic, you could see the boxes up there balancing. But they were secure.

Next dream was about Battlestar Galactica, the old one, the good one. Starbuck looked very young despite being about 60. We got separated somehow and I was looking for him, too. But now I don’t remember much more of that dream. Maybe more will come back to me. I was dreaming about that just before I woke up. Hrmph!

Well I’ve not taken any Trazodone for.. what.. four days now? Five? Maybe three? LOL I’ll have to look at my blog to find out because I have a rotten memory.

And while I feel lighter and my temperature feels cooler, my head still hurts quite a bit and I’ve been grumpy as hell for the last couple of days. Am I going through withdrawals? Maybe I shouldn’t have stopped cold turkey. Maybe I should go do some research about it on the internet. Hrm.. Maybe I should have done this a few days ago.

I have a low level anger, but it’s nothing like before I was on the Sertraline (I’m still on that, btw). But at the same time I don’t really care much about things. I can stare out the window and watch the clouds, which I love to do, and have the day pass more slowly, which I also love. I try to grab every minute of every day as it comes, because time just goes by way too fast anymore.

So I do feel better. If only my head would stop feeling like it’s 3 times the size it’s supposed to be. And I’m still tired, though not as badly as I was before. It’s 4:33 pm.. too late in the afternoon to take a nap? Maybe not. Maybe I will take a nap. I took one yesterday, and I felt better. I just love naps.

EDIT: Well, from the web, some places say Trazodone is not addictive and so you can’t have withdrawals. But many people seem to have withdrawals anyway. So I’m going to say yup, I’m having withdrawals from Trazodone and call it good. And I only stopped on the 22nd of Feb, so that’s only three days ago. The days have been going by so nice and slowly, and I am very happy with that!

Hopefully by this next weekend I’ll feel better.

Well pooh! I love saying pooh, so I’m saying it again. I haven’t had any dreams lately… I wonder if it is because I stopped taking the Trazodone cold turkey. I posted about it on my other blog. And I’m having headaches, too, so I’m probably having withdrawals from the Trazodone even though I’ve read it’s not physically addicting.

But who knows. I only know how I feel, and that’s not great. Fortunately I’ve been sleeping fine. I don’t remember my dreams from last night, but I slept for about 10 hours. I love to sleep. On this nice lazy weekends I go to bed when I’m tired, which is about 9:30 pm, and I get up when I wake up, which is about 7 or 7:30 am. The dogs don’t like me to sleep much later than that because it’s breakfast time. So I’m getting a lot of good sleep this weekend.

Maybe I need some luxury watches to set an alarm to wake me up earlier… naw. I love my sleeping in weekends!

Sometimes I think my movie tastes are very shallow. Well, I used to like the deep meaningful movies and some of my favorites include The Fisher King and Dead Poets Society. But also among my favorites are Joe Vs. the Volcano (which I think is, actually, quite deep if you get it) and The Princess Bride.

Since there has been hardly anything to watch on TV lately, I have been going through the Dish Network HD channels and recording various shows. I recorded and, mostly, watched Original Sin with Angelina Jolie and Antonio Banderas. I didn’t like it. It was one of those relationship shows that settles wrong with me. I’d rather watch a fun chick flick like 50 First Dates. Now that was a cute show.

I also don’t really care for the mainstream movies that get the Oscar Awards. Brokeback Mountain was pretty good, but mostly because of the subject, not necessarily the story line. If I want to see people in rotten relationships, drug addictions, or other miserable lives, I have only to watch the nightly news, read the paper, or drive downtown. When I watch a TV Show or a movie, I want a light happy comedy with a happy ending.

I have been also enjoying Netflix (see my sidebar for movies I’m watching) and I watched Hellboy last night. I was entertained. It wasn’t my most favorite, but it was a lot more enjoyable than Original Sin!

So maybe I’m shallow in my movie watching anymore. Give me a good, cheesy action adventure any day as opposed to a show about a relationship gone bad or people cheating on each other. I do enjoy movies and TV I guess I need my own home theater popcorn machines to go with my show watching.

Psych and Monk and Stargate Atlantis have been keeping me entertained during the Writer’s Strike. But they are ending now… I’ve been watching Terminator, the Sara Connor Chronicles, which im enjoying. I hope Heroes comes back soon. And my cousin has introduced me to Anime, so I’m getting some Anime on Netflix too.

Ahh.. I just enjoy a good story. Or even just a cheesy story.

This is the easiest logo design tool I have ever used, have you tried it? I am still looking for a nice logo for my Utah Dogs website… and this might just be the place for me to go. I will check out their dog designs they have. And maybe there is something nice I can use from there. I need something nice!

This tool lets you create a very nice logo and choose your own colors. And then when you create a business card, the colors automatically match and look great together. I am rotten at matching colors, so this is great for me! It was quick, easy to use, and the finished product is a great quality!

Well I feel better. Yup.. I’m not in such a daze, my throat is clearing up, and so is my nose. So.. after not taking the Trazodone for… three nights now? I have to say that yes, it’s been the Trazodone that has been making me feel bad.

I do wish the doctor would have caught that. But alas, as I said, doctors are not really worth all that much unless you have a broken bone.

My neck still cracks and hurts. The chiropractor hasn’t helped it. I’m doing stretches and using a heating pad on it. Hopefully it will fix itself on it’s own. If not, I’ll have to go find someone who can help. Maybe I just need a good deep massage. That might be my next try.

Today is a nice down day. I get to stay home most of the day. Tomorrow will be dog training, Monday I’m taking Lucy to the holistic vet (she probably has cancer… I may not have blogged about it here, but I have on my other blog, Tip Tail). And then next Thursday I’m going to a flyball seminar.

I am also getting my husband on my life insurance through work. We need to make sure we have good family life insurance so that if either of us dies, the other can, at least, pay off the house!

Well, I have been sleeping well the last few nights, though I haven’t dreamed much. Which I miss. I stopped taking Trazadone to help me sleep because, at long last, I figured out that it was messing me up doing the day and I was feeling pretty rotten.

I don’t have a plasma lift console to sleep on.. which is just fine with me! But I’m liking my new mattress and bed. And Muffit, our newest family member, has been sleeping with me which is fun. He is a snuggler boy. Border collie, most likely, maybe some sheltie in there? Not sure but he’ll be fun to do flyball with!

Anyway.. sweet dreams all!

I went to bed last night and I’d forgotten to take my Trazodone to help me sleep. Well I was tired anyway so I decided I’d see if I could skip it. I think I have been taking them since before September to help me sleep, because the Sertraline was making it hard for me to sleep. And I am paranoid about getting enough sleep. It’s one of those fears that I have, that I won’t get enough sleep.

Fortunately I feel asleep just fine and slept most of the night. I did wake up about 3am but I felt pretty good so just laid there and after a while I fell back asleep again snuggled with all the dogs on the bed (three now, including Muffit).

When I woke up I felt refreshed and good. And it made me think. Are all my problems being caused by the Trazodone? I feel so much better today… I haven’t felt this light and airy in months now. My neck is still kinked, but my nose feels more clear and my throat less scratchy.

So I’m going to stay off the Trazodone for a few days and see how it works. I’m afraid of not being able to sleep, but heck it’s the weekend so it won’t be a big deal if I’m tired. I hate being tired during the day. In fact, I’m quite nervous about it. I hate feeling bad. Hate it hate it! But then I’ve felt bad for some months now so maybe, just maybe, this will perk me up. It’s something I should have thought of months ago.. but my sleep is so important I don’t want to mess it up!