Luna Tail

Life really is being relaxing for me, now. And there is not much on TV, so I haven’t been watching much. And the server has moved, I do have to do a couple of cleanup things but it’s basically all done.

Dog training is an ongoing process, and will be so throughout my life. Which is good.

So… when I have nothing to do, I don’t know what to do with myself. It’s really weird. I no longer have anything to worry about in life.. my husband and I are doing well, the dogs are healthy (knock on wood), my family is going strong.

So sometimes I just don’t know how to deal with the silence. I like the silence. I like to relax. I like not having messy codependency and rotten relationships in my life. Now I can really focus on going forward, advancing in those things I care about, instead of just getting out of bed in the morning and struggling through the day.

It’s like when society goes beyond just hunting and gathering and surviving, and is able to develop culture and art and science, and have leisure time.

The Alanis Morissette Song comes to mind:
“Why are you so Petrified of Silence.
Here can you handle this…

Did you think about your bills, your ex, your deadlines, when you think you’re gonna die. Did you long for the next distraction?”

And so now I learn how to relax. How to have culture and art and science.. and relax. And the days go on. And maybe I can find some Pigeon Forge cabins in my future, if I decide that is where I want to go.

Speaking of going, I’m going to be going to the Clicker Expo in Los Angeles, leaving tomorrow. I may or may not be able to blog from there. I’ll be busy, I’m sure. But I do hope to bring my laptop. I’ll be back late Sunday!

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