Luna Tail

Today is Day Two. By tomorrow, I’ll feel even better than I do today. I am amazed, every month after day one rolls around again, how completely awful I feel during PMS. Man, it is so real. It is so intense. It is so awful. The Vitex Agnus Castus keeps it in control, as does the Sertraline, but still my entire body feels like it’s stretched out on a wire, every cell is full of tension and misery. When my hormones start to even themselves out again, I feel like a rush of good drugs are flowing through my system, through my bloodstream, making everything okay again.

Already I decorated my office, office furniture and all, for Christmas. Put up my Christmas tree and lights, and cleaned my whole desk. I’ve emailed people, talked to people, and relaxed. I feel normal again. Like a normal human being. I really wish ‘they’ would find a complete cure to PMS. Until they do, I manage as best I can. And I try to control the Anxiety that comes with it.

I used to be filled to overflowing with intense anger and hatred during PMS. Overwhelming feelings of hatred. And I was not pleasant to be around, for people or for dogs. And I regret that. However, I am so much better now and everyone around me knows it. I have read that the hormones/chemicals of PMS can trigger the anger and hate centers of the brain and trigger these feelings. Which is really odd, because an external source is not causing me to feel these things. It is inside my brain, an internal world. And that is why, my friends, I do believe in depression and anxiety and yes, PMS, as being treatable diseases.

Tags: Anxiety, Cycles, Holidays, Mental Health

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