I Don’t Care Enough
Filed Under (Anxiety, Daily Posts) by Cynthia on Nov 6, 2007 5:08 pm
Tagged Under : Anxiety, Medication, Mental Health
You know, since I started taking Sertraline back in April, I stopped really having major highs. Which is okay, I said all my life I’d given up the highs if I could get rid of the awful lows. And it finally happened and that makes me very happy.
However, I wonder now if I just don’t care enough. I don’t give a crap about much anymore, seriously. I do think I’m better than I used to be. I prefer this to how I was. And I am logical enough to know if I go too far with not caring enough. And I do still care, don’t get me wrong. I care about my dogs and my husband and my job and my friends and my family.
So what am I trying to say here? Ha ha, I dunno. Maybe I’m just fine. OH I remember! There I go, finally remembering.
I am not watching what I eat as much as I need to. I go out to eat at lunch with my friends at work too much, and have too many things with too many calories. I know the pounds are coming back. And I can’t jog now, because of my stupid ankle. But seriously, I just have to watch the food, that is more important than exercising to my body.
When I start something, I get OCD about it. Or I used to, anyway. Obsessive Compulsive. That is how I dropped 20 pounds to begin with. I get all gung-ho and obsessed by it. Well, my OCD is gone. I think it’s almost completely wiped out now. Which is, again, a good thing. But now I have to learn how to live, and do things I want to do, without getting obsessive about them.
A whole new learning curve. Oh joy. Just want I wanted… not! 
It’s always something, isn’t it?
(Now I have to go through my post and correct my spelling, my acrylic nails really cause me a ton of typos. I type the letter ‘n’ once for every word.)
On this day..
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Hey Woman ! I think you are doing wonderful ! and I know you care, but its hard to keep the weight down. I keep reading and watching shows that say it is harder when we get older. So, I have a proposition for you. We are doing the “Project 0″ at work. We have to work in pairs, lemme know if you are interested. Its only for the holidays. XO
Hey Woman ! I think you are doing wonderful ! and I know you care, but its hard to keep the weight down. I keep reading and watching shows that say it is harder when we get older. So, I have a proposition for you. We are doing the "Project 0" at work. We have to work in pairs, lemme know if you are interested. Its only for the holidays. XO
Great post. Sounds like you are doing what is best for you! That is a good thing. Others will benefit when you feel your best.
Great post. Sounds like you are doing what is best for you! That is a good thing. Others will benefit when you feel your best.
Having to relearn how to behave is almost as hard as living with the problems.
If I can do it then so can you.
I was on Lexapro for years for BPD, but I am now even free of that. I just have a Klonopin now for when I need it.
Having to relearn how to behave is almost as hard as living with the problems. If I can do it then so can you.
I was on Lexapro for years for BPD, but I am now even free of that. I just have a Klonopin now for when I need it.
Hi Chris I’m on board for the Project 0!
Hi Chris I'm on board for the Project 0!
Thanks Leigh.. it’s weird that this part is hard too, I kinda thought everything would just fall into line.
Thanks Leigh.. it's weird that this part is hard too, I kinda thought everything would just fall into line.
Thanks Karen, things are coming along.
Thanks Karen, things are coming along.