Something I’ve Never Had Before

I have discovered the personal experience of actually having patience and moving slower through time. Thanks to my meds, I can now do things and actually experience them, instead of rushing through and trying only to avoid my anxiety.

It’s pretty amazing. I never experienced this before. And I think it’s something that you can’t really understand until you experience it. And yes, I am enjoying it, and appreciating it, very much!

I can talk to people and be fairly calm. I do still have anxiety, don’t get me wrong. And sometimes I don’t know if I’m feeling hunger or anxiety.

But now I can cut up liver for the dogs’ treats and remain calm. I can actually read instructions when putting something together and try to figure it out, instead of getting frustrated and giving up.

Recently I’ve been starting to wear eye makeup. I have never had the patience before. Makeup and Hair were horrible for me and filled with tons of anxiety. Taking the time, and having the patience, to actually learn how to apply makeup was something I was not capable of doing.

And so now I’m trying to learn how to wear eye makeup. I have no idea. My eyelashes, as I posted about before, are light and thin and blond. And they point in toward my nose. And they my eyes are so pale I’d like to bring them out more, once in a while. Not be a slave to makeup, never a slave to it, but I’d like to know how to wear it.

So now I want to find myself an eye makeup tutorial with photos. Yes, I’m 40, and yes maybe I should have learned this 20 years ago. But I never did. So I want to learn it now! :) Anyone know of any good eyeliner and mascara tutorials? Do I have to wear eyeshadow to, if I wear eyeliner and mascara?

So much to learn…

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8 Responses to “Something I’ve Never Had Before”

  1. Chris Says:

    Wow. Thanks for the words of encouragement. Maybe there is hope for me yet; I tend to rush rush rush in everything I do. XOXO

  2. Chris Says:

    Wow. Thanks for the words of encouragement. Maybe there is hope for me yet; I tend to rush rush rush in everything I do. XOXO

  3. Chris Says:

    Glad to hear you’re making progress and able to do the little things we take for granted.
    Lauren Hutton (laurenhutton.com) sells a line of makeup made for us aging women, and a tutorial video comes with the makeup kit. I like Lauren Hutton’s makup line because you don’t feel overdone. You may be able to get the video separately without ordering the whole starter kit-I’m not sure. Also, it’s been many moons ago, but I think Victoria Jackson’s makeup line has a tutorial video as well. I used her makeup before I tried Lauren Hutton’s. Both are good

  4. Chris Says:

    Glad to hear you're making progress and able to do the little things we take for granted. Lauren Hutton (laurenhutton.com) sells a line of makeup made for us aging women, and a tutorial video comes with the makeup kit. I like Lauren Hutton's makup line because you don't feel overdone. You may be able to get the video separately without ordering the whole starter kit-I'm not sure. Also, it's been many moons ago, but I think Victoria Jackson's makeup line has a tutorial video as well. I used her makeup before I tried Lauren Hutton's. Both are good

  5. Cynthia Blue Says:

    Hey Chris! Maybe it’s in the genes or the upbringing. :) It is possible though, to relax!

  6. Cynthia Blue Says:

    Hey Chris! Maybe it's in the genes or the upbringing. :) It is possible though, to relax!

  7. Cynthia Blue Says:

    Oh another Chris! Thanks for that website link, I have checked it out and it looks very interesting. I really don’t want to feel overdone, but I want my pale eyes to not be so.. pale. :) I’ll also check out Victoria Jackson.

  8. Cynthia Blue Says:

    Oh another Chris! Thanks for that website link, I have checked it out and it looks very interesting. I really don't want to feel overdone, but I want my pale eyes to not be so.. pale. :) I'll also check out Victoria Jackson.

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