Luna Tail

OOo wow I had a great long dream last night. It was based in dog camp, and I was there with my friend M from down south. And I even have a name… Ashi. He was an asian man who was very attractive and I really wanted to get together with him. I wanted his phone number, too, but I couldn’t read it… I can never read in my dreams.

So anyway, it started where I was driving in the dark and I was trying to find camp. And I knew that I’d driven too far because I saw a gate. It was pitch black, too, so I could hardly see in front of me at all. I turned the car around and I opened the door and stuck my hand out. I then felt the edge of the assfault with my hand as I drove. It was smooth and didn’t hurt, it didn’t even occur to me that it might hurt. So I drove slowly and felt the first turn where the first road went off, then followed it again until the second turn to the right, which was camp. I wonder if this is from driving without my contacts in where I can’t see well, so I stare at the lines in the road (well not stare, but watch, I can see big cars too).

So anyway I got to camp and then things change as they do in dreams. I remember a big building where M and I were waiting to get something to eat. And we were with a .. wait, I don’t think that is in order. I think first we were sitting at a table and talking, and there was a guy there that was interested in me. Not Ashi, he was there too but he was more of a friend until the end. I told this other guy that I was rather interested in Chris, a guy I knew from High School (that I haven’t thought of for years and years) and suddenly, he was there. We hugged and it was fun to see him again. But since he had a girlfriend I thought I would try to get to know this other guy.

So then after that we went to stand in line to get something to eat, and people kept passing us and getting their food but we stood there and ours didn’t come. We didn’t get mad, though, we just stood and laughed and joked and talked. Me and M were there, and another girl, and Ashi and Chris and that other guy who liked me. And I did try to pay more attention to him. I kept thinking he’s a nice guy and why am I not attracted to him as much? Because he is attracted to me? Hrm.
Anyway, later on I remember running through the big mess hall building and being chased by bulls with big horns. And hiding in a closet while they banged at the door. But then it wasn’t really me because I wasn’t afraid, it was kinda like watching someone else.

At the end we were going to travel out of camp. No thought of a car came up, though we were going to have to trudge through the forest in the dark. So lots of people… oh yeah, it was because we’d be housed in another camp further away. Though the prior year (in the dream) we had been housed right there after the party so after cleaning up we could just go to bed. But this year we had to get back to our other camp in the black black dark. Lots of us were grouped up and ready to move out.

I think I went by myself, and I had my cell phone so I could call Ashi if i got into trouble. That is when I started getting more interested in him. I got back home, and I think the dogs were with me when I was walking through the dark forest, and back home was a really nice condo that was all clean and sparkling, and I called Ashi and told him I was okay. And we were going to meet up, and I was going to get his phone number but I couldn’t read anything in my dream.

There was also a point where I was looking at my camp entry for next year, and I saw that my name was listed as Cynthia Blue, not my real name, with someone else’s social security number. So I had to enter my real name and my real SSN….
That’s about all I remember. And it’s already fading. I wish I could remember the feeling of dreams afterwards, but in a few days probably all I’ll have left are these words.

I really like having a dream diary.

I don’t remember any dreams for the last couple of nights. Last night I went to bed much too late. But it was such a gorgeous night so I went for a walk with a friend and the dogs after obedience class and it was a lot of fun.
I went to bed around 11pm, which is super late for me. Yes, I like my sleep. And yes, I like my nine hours of sleep per night. So now I’m going to go to bed and hope to get at least 8, hopefully more!

So tonight at flyball practice I got yelled at. Ugh. And I knew it was coming, because the person who did the yelling does it quite often at others. And with Chase’s pads being torn and broken, he couldn’t practice.

But you know what? I think I did well. I didn’t yell back. I was nice. However, I did feel like I had to leave. I went so I could help out, but I figured it wasn’t worth it. I don’t like to be spoken to like that. Though I understand the speaker may not be aware, or really understand, what she is doing. And I like her anyway.

So I did step away, and the tears came. But they were really weird tears. Because inside I really felt okay. I knew myself, knew how I felt, knew what I had to do to take care of myself… I talked to some of the other girls, off to the side, who had already been yelled at, and commiserated with them a bit. I could laugh about it even while the tears were running out my eyes.

I’ve learned a lot over the last few years. I really like my friends I have in flyball now, and agility, and I’m so glad I’m doing this. No one that hasn’t experienced Anxiety can understand the thrill I feel that I actually have friends. Now that makes me cry. I mean look at me… I’m actually out there, taking the risk of getting yelled at, and making friends, even with my social and general anxiety. So really, tonight was a good step for me. It was an affirmation that I am doing what I want to do, handling it (okay not really too well, but I know that about myself), and moving on.

Woo Hoo.

So even though it was stressful, it was okay. And I came home early with the boys and am letting Chase rest, because the dogs are my number one priority.

I was looking for a better way to read my RSS feeds with Firefox. I love Firefox. This website is optimized for Firefox, as are all my sites and blogs.

Anyway, I was using Bloglines and I think I will keep that for my Do Follow RSS Feeds. But for quick feeds that I want to look at every day, I’m going to now use Sage.

It is light, and opens a left menu just like bookmarks or history. Very clean and very nice. And I love how the posts are displayed in my browser window.

Yup yup, I like it!

This is one of my favorite YouTube videos. Yes… I love John Barrowman.. and his alter ego, Captain Jack Harkess from Torchwood and Doctor Who. I just can’t wait for the next season of Torchwood but it’s not until next year!

Check this out… oooo

The last couple of days have been nice and slow. A good relief. Since I’ll be making a 5 hour drive Saturday Morning to St. George. I don’t think the motel I’ll be staying in will have internet, so I’ll be leaving my laptop at home and will update my blogs when I get back.

I did end up straightening up the house quite well, and it makes me happy. I haven’t dusted, but I’ve uncluttered. And lack of clutter is a good thing. I’ll take some pics and post them when I get off my but and go upstairs… if I don’t forget.

I still need to unclutter my spare bedroom. I think I’m going to pull out the PC that is in there, and make it a real spare bedroom instead of computer room/junk room. And then maybe I’ll get some home furniture for the room, too. Like a dresser. I could even keep my clothes in there, since the one in my own bedroom is so small. And maybe some of my husband’s clothes will fit, too.

Oooo yes yes yes I like this new skin. The comment email responder doesn’t work right in Firefox yet… but I’m working on it (with help thanks!). And I’m not sure about the brown background, does it match? Or should I change it to another color?

Anyway… I was reading today about how to optimize post titles in wordpress.

There is a box called Post Slug when you are writing a post. And that actually changes the URL of the post. Which I may just do on this post… though I wonder how it will affect pingbacks? Will it disable the link or will it fix it?

Let’s try it out!

EDIT: well, I have to change it BEFORE I post a pingback link, or else it’s just like changing the URL.

Booo, the weekend is over. That just isn’t any fun. Next weekend I’m going to St George, Utah, for flyball with Chase. Should be fun. Will be our first flyball tourney. I hope Chase’s box turn holds up. I hear it can fall apart and be difficult in the stress.

Today was a good day. Got my laundry folded finally.. I had a ton. Only about 5 bins worth. Did dog training in the morning, and the dentist at noon, then grocery shopped, came home and did laundry and cleaned up some more.

The weekend after next I should be home again to relax. Then after that will be another agility trial. Three days. We’ll see how that goes too! Busy day today, but I think I got a lot done.

Okay, I didn’t have enough time this morning to post about my dream last night. And so now I will try to remember. It was a fun dream, although a controversial one. But I am quite liberal and odd so never mind me.

I dreamed that I was going to sleep with my friends from work. Male/Female couple and they have been dating here and there. Yes… both at the same time. However, I felt like I really wanted to call my Husband and okay it with him first, and when I did so I asked him to join us. I really wanted him to come too.

I remember walking down the street, too, with my top off. I didn’t really care, it wasn’t an embarrasement dream. But when the other woman came by and had put her top back on, I figured I should be modest and put a top on so I did.

Yeah I would probably walk around naked in real life if I could get away with it and be cool. If I was a man I’d never wear a shirt. Even as a woman I wear tank tops and sports bras most of the time in the summer. I love the heat and the summer.

Anyway I think there was more, but it was a fun dream and I woke with a pleasant feeling.

Still goofing off. I thought I would post where I got this theme from… It’s called Simply Vic. It’s a very nice theme. I did make some changes to it.. I widened the middle text part, adjusted the images, and changed the background. I’d lost the right menu bar for a while, but was able to get it back.

Anyway, the only thing remaining that I don’t like is that the post topics are flash… why are they flash? When I right-click to copy the link location, or open in a new tab in Firefox, I cannot do that. It just tells me it’s flash.

I don’t know much about flash, and I’d like to change it to HTML… if anyone can help me I’d appreciate it!