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Do you consider yourself reliable?

I worry about being reliable. One of the things that causes me anxiety. I’m very paranoid that people will think I’m unreliable. And lots of times I am unreliable. Often when I’m in the depths of anxiety, or else when I’m having major PMS. Or other times when I’m just tired.

I really do try to call people back, meet deadlines, do what I say I’m going to do, and things like that. In dog rescue, most people are reliable. However, many many rescue people are busy. Very busy. Hard to get in touch with, and hard to meet up with. I want to try my best to be available.

Sometimes I’m not. Last weekend I was at agility, and then I was very tired, and so I was not really available, nor was I reliable. But I was able to call back everyone I needed to yesterday. And so I think I’m okay.

But really, maybe I should stop beating myself up for it. Who cares if I’m reliable anyway? Is it just something in myself that matters, and doesn’t really matter to anyone else? Hrm.

[tags]anxiety, reliability, social anxiety[/tags]