Luna Tail

Okay.. well, today is my last easy sick day. Being Sunday. Tomorrow I’ll have to go back to work. I’m still not feeling all that great, but I can’t just stay home all the time. As much as I’d like to.

I don’t mind being sick, really. Because when I’m sick I don’t have to have any responsibilities. I know this goes back to my childhood. I always had no stress when I was sick. I could do whatever I wanted. Not be judged for what I was doing. I can relax and just enjoy life. Do whatever I like to do. Not have the heavy weight of ‘am I good enough’ hanging over my head, which always seems to be there. Something I really need to get rid of, and is one of the main causes of my anxiety.

So right now I am setting up my Do Follow RSS feeds, listening to John Barrowman sing on YouTube (not only does he look good, he sounds good too).

The only drawback of being sick, is I’ve always needed physical evidence. A sniffle, or a fever, or something like that. This thing I have, I don’t really have physical evidence, unfortunately. But my husband doesn’t care, and my Mom doesn’t live with me anymore. And why would I fake being sick anyway? I’d rather play with the dogs, and I really want to do the agility trial next weekend. It’s a three dayer.

I might actually go to the doctor tomorrow. There is one physical sign that I have that is very odd, indeed. Thursday night I broke out with little red splotches all over me. I thought maybe a spider had bitten me at night. But I have a ton of them, and all over my chest, my hips, and my arms. It’s really weird. Maybe I have chicken pox… but since I had them as a Kid, maybe Shingles? I just dunno. And my throat is still a bit sore. And I’m still tired, don’t have much energy or motivation. And I’m still a bit achy. But I don’t have any shooting pains. Diagnosis over the internet is such a bad thing, though. Usually I think I just have everything. :p

Oh well, back to more John Barrowman videos… LOL.

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