CynthiaI am extending myself… I have made a decision to do something that is going to push myself both mentally and emotionally. And put my SA to the test.
Dog Rescue.
I’ve started a rescue with help from a friend who does a different rescue. This is going to entail dealing with a lot of people, and telling them, in some cases, things they don’t want to hear.
It’s going to include picking up dogs from people who no longer want them. And I don’t know what to say, really… how can you give up your dog? I would never give up my dog. But I would, sad to say, give up my cats. I have never bonded with the cats, and them being gone would just be two less things to worry about, feed, and pay for. The husband, however, is bonded to the cats. But not me. So I cannot really judge people for giving up their dogs, can I? Since I would give up the cats since I have not bonded to them. So I will try to accept, even where I have a hard time understanding.
Maybe I need to leave judgment and understanding behind.
Regardless, it will be a stretch. More so than any other thing I do, including pod cycling and dealing with the people there. It will be stressful and trying. Fortunately the breed I am going to be helping with is fairly rare, so hopefully there will not be so many to deal with. The people will be the hard part. The dogs are easy. Dogs are so much easier than people.
So last night I was in door-mat mode as I picked a dog up from his exhome and dropped him off at his new foster home. I was nice and polite, but the 3rd me sat in the back of my brain and didn’t like how I talked. Well, I do my best. I was kind and polite and just fine.
Really, I don’t know who I am. I would like to.
We’ll have to see how this works out. I figure worst comes to worst and I can back out if I need to. I won’t go into debt or crowd out my house, so setting boundaries and saying no will be a big part of this. Both things I definitely need practice to learn well.
It’s gonna be hard. I hope it’s as rewarding.
On this day..
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