Aug 31 2006
Going Away
Saturday, September 2, I am going on vacation. By myself with my dogs.
I’m going to dog camp. It’s a long drive… and it’s going to be with a bunch of people who I don’t know and have never met.
I’m terrified.
The dog part will be great. Maybe I can request no other people being there?
I hope to practice a lot of activities, and maybe swim a bit, and go hiking. It should be a lot of fun. For normal people.
If only I could stop smiling so much! I smile and laugh when I’m nervous, and I really think it makes me look stupid. Like an idiot. But if I try to stop, then I feel cold or unnatural. It’s a hard choice. The smiling and laughing is more practiced. Though I do it much less than I used to when I was younger.
Hrmph. My boss asked me today if I would be interested in his job if he left. HA HA HA. I take that as an enormous compliment, like he thinks I would be able to do it. I would… except the people part. I would not want to manage people. He also told me my code was a work of art. Yup, same code that was so screwed up a couple weeks ago the whole world was falling to pieces. 
Gotta love it. He’s a great guy. He was having bad day.
Interesting blog.
I hope you find yourself being able to let go a bit, at dog camp! I don’t have SA (quite the opposite I guess) but I definitely get competitive and anxious about performing well; I hate to do poorly.
When I started competing in dog agility, I was a nervous wreck at my first trial. Then I realised, part of the fun is realising so much stuff is out of our control anyhow, and accepting the loss of control was only OK, but part of relating to other people in the same situation. I watched my own agility instructor make a fool of herself in the ring and laugh about it – I figured, well the humbling sillieness is just part of it!
Anyhow, I hope you have a lovely time and if you’re going to the one in Michigan, give a report!
Interesting blog.
<br/>I hope you find yourself being able to let go a bit, at dog camp! I don't have SA (quite the opposite I guess) but I definitely get competitive and anxious about performing well; I hate to do poorly.<br/>When I started competing in dog agility, I was a nervous wreck at my first trial. Then I realised, part of the fun is realising so much stuff is out of our control anyhow, and accepting the loss of control was only OK, but part of relating to other people in the same situation. I watched my own agility instructor make a fool of herself in the ring and laugh about it – I figured, well the humbling sillieness is just part of it!<br/>Anyhow, I hope you have a lovely time and if you're going to the one in Michigan, give a report!