CynthiaWell, it looks like the server must be bounced, and so I’m at a halt. Well, for a half hour at least, and then the real fun starts. 5:30 pm, should be time to go home. Oh well. I’m actually one of the important folk now and I really, really enjoy being important. I wish I got paid more for being more important.
Life is good. I haven’t done anything much, like I said, because of work. Didn’t go to Pod Cycling class Monday or Tuesday, because of work and the 4th holiday, respectively. So I don’t have much social anxiety to report.
I can talk about other general anxiety. There are some things I just hate to do, because when I even start them, I get all tight and angry. It’s quite odd, I think I have associated bad feelings with certain actions. Cooking is one of them. I start to cook, and I just get cranky. It’s Pavlovian I think. I start to clean the house, same thing. Even with my Pod Cycling, and I hate that. 
Also writing. I so want to write, but I get all twisted up inside when I sit down to do so. But I have such a great story in my head!
A new thing I’ve started up that does not cause this anxiety is knitting! Oh I love to knit. I can sit and figure out a pattern for hours. And I’m good at it! It’s so refreshing.
Also my work, I don’t get anxious about working. I work on software and so I’m glad about that. And, over the last few years my boss has given me some great stuff to work on that has increased my self confidence exponentially. I’m grateful.
Learned Helplessness, is anyone familiar with it? It’s amazing. I have Learned Helplessness in a lot of areas. It’s so wonderful to know that what I do does make a difference. Instead of trying and trying and trying, and getting no positive results. Sometimes that still happens to me, but I’m now convinced that if I continue to try, I will succeed!
On this day..
- What's Up Out There? - 2008
- PMSey - 2008
- Things I Won't Do - 2008
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