Luna Tail|Lunacy, Crabiness, Life

Yeap, September is here. It’s September Day. I always wondered why May was the only month that got it’s own day… May Day. How come every month doesn’t get it’s own day? Well today is September Day if you ask me. But only for another few minutes. Actually this post should show up much later then when I’m writing it. I’m just trying to spread the posts out… instead of posting on all three blogs at the same time, which I’m doing, I’m scheduling this one to post later tonight so I don’t inundate the web with my ramblings. Not that it really matters.

The weather will be cooling off soon. Actually, it already is. It was in the mid 70s today and it was so nice! I love this temperature. Blue skies and cool. Aaaaah I wish we had more of this. It actually felt like fall today. Maybe we’ll get a month or so of fall. I can only hope. Usually it doesn’t work out that way.

Anyway, things are the same by me, I don’t have a healthcare job, I have my regular programming job. And the dogs and the husband and the house. So far, so good. My body is equalizing from my lack of meds and the sucky thing is that I cry again. Bleh. I haven’t cried for three years (well I have, like when Angel died, but still). I’d rather have the lack of emotions. Alas, I guess now I’m just human again. I’d rather be Vulcan or Android.

Yeap, I’m just a dizzy blonde. Or is it supposed to be ditzy blonde? Well I’m one of those too, I think.

Today I feel better, not quite as sick. But then Friday I felt pretty good, too. Saturday, yesterday, I felt rotten again. I really don’t get sick very often. Maybe twice a year… but when I do get sick, it wipes me out and it takes me a really long time to recover. And I tend to get sick when I start exercising again… like with my jogging and swimming. Probably I’m just overtaxing myself and my body shuts down. Bleh.

But anyway, about being Dizzy… I have been dizzy a lot lately. I went to the store and got some Dramamine to see if that helps. Dizzy and nauseous, I’ve been both. And yup, the Dramamine actually has helped. I think it’s time for me to go to the Ear Nose Throat doctor again and get my ears tested out. I think they have been stuffy again, and yesterday I thought it was raining when I woke up because I heard a crackling in my left ear. So.. tomorrow I’ll call the doc and see what they say.

Now I’m going to take a nap. When I get up I’ll check my scanner software and my websites and see how they are holding up. Been doing some changes that I’ll post about in a while. Computers… bleh. They can be fun, and they can be downright tedious.

Yeap, I’m sick. Ever since I got back from Idaho Falls. I felt fine while I was there. I felt fine on Monday, too, after I got back. But then Tuesday when I woke up I felt rotten.

My husband tells me that he felt like this over the weekend while I was gone. And so I guess he saved it for me for when I got back.    I feel seriously nauseous.  And dizzy.  And I’m achy and tired and cranky.  I don’t have cold symptoms… I am not stuffy or sneezy, fortunately.  And I’m not really flu achy, but my joints ache.  And I just want to sleep.

The biggest symptom is the nauseousness, though.  It’s awful and pretty much dampens the entire rest of my body. I’ve tried taking Pepto a couple times just to calm my stomach down.  But it’s like it centers there, and then radiates out to the rest of my body.  That probably doesn’t make any sense but oh well.  I just feel rotten all around. I haven’t even done any training in the yard with the dogs. And I’m not going to train tonight. And I don’t know if I’ll put Chase in ASCA obedience this weekend. I hope I feel better by then. My husband said he was down for about 3 days.  This is pretty much day 3… so we’ll see if I feel better tomorrow. I sure hope so. I can’t concentrate and I can’t do anything but watch TV and sleep. I haven’t even been on the computer that much.

Well, it’s been… um… about six weeks since I’ve been back from Denmark. How the time flies! When I was there it seemed like it was lasting for longer than two weeks. But now that I’m home, time is flying again.

So anyway this weekend I’m going up to Idaho Falls with a friend, her two dogs, and Chase, Tatum and Jet. We are going to do some obedience. Should be fun. I love this trip, it’s really beautiful up there. The park we trial in is super nice and quiet and shady and cool. And then we walk along the Snake River and take a couple hundred pictures of the dogs. LOL. Always fun!

Hopefully the construction jobs are just about done for the year and the drive will be okay. Though it’s been raining like crazy today here so I hope it’s not an awful wet rainy drive tonight.

UGH… I hate it when companies sell. I loved Steadcom. They were so awesome. I was with them for three years. They hosted my VPS and their support was amazingly fast. And they were really affordable, too. I was hoping I could have my VPS with them forever…

Alas, companies sell. I don’t know why the sold, but they did. And the new company is called eTecc. Well, I wasn’t too pleased when I realized that eTecc expected it’s VPS customers to set up their VPSs from scratch. Of course I realized this AFTER they shut the server down that had my entire VPS on it. Needless to say, I kinda panicked. I’m not the most savvy server admin in the world.. and when I’m working on my server and I get those messages that say “Please Contact Your System Administrator” I just cringe because that probably means hours of googling and reading message boards to find out the solution of my problem. I want my VPS to just be set up, and just to work, and not to have any problems.

I have a VPS instead of a shared host because I have quite a few blogs that I run on my VPS. Plus I have Utah Dogs, and although it’s not all that popular, I want to keep it going in the hopes that someday it will be popular. Shared hosts just don’t seem beefy enough for my needs. But then VPSs are more complicated and sometimes beyond my skill level. Alas, I like the VPS it seems to work pretty well.

So anyway, yes eTecc did send out an email, and far down in the email (which I didn’t really analyze closely) it said we’d need to set up our VPS entirely from scratch. Well I didn’t really examine that part, and so the old server just shut down one day and I was mightly upset. Like I said, it would take me a week, or more, to set everything back up again!

Fortunately eTecc helped me out. If they had access to the servers, then the probably have mirroring software too. It’d be a zillion times faster and easier to mirror the software onto the new servers (I guess they didn’t just keep the old servers?). And they did it… they came through, I’m so relieved. I don’t want to change hosts, though I still might need more memory eventually. We’ll see. But eTecc was able to rebuild my VPS and it’s up and running again. What a relief! They provided some good support, even though their first reply took a while.

So here I am, back online… and hopefully I’ll stay that way. Thanks eTecc, for providing customer service to a self schooled system admin who kinda limps by with her VPS. I do greatly appreciate it.

It’s true. I just don’t do very well with things I have to do over and over again. For some reason I my anxiety gets higher when I have to things over and over again. Like mowing the lawn, or vacuuming, or washing the dishes or doing laundry. Or dusting. Gads, the list is pretty long, isn’t it? LOL

I like things that change frequently like dog training. Going out and teaching the dogs something new, and learning with them, is a lot of fun. Going new places is fun. Even finding new multi color led christmas lights for decorations is fun. Though the last couple of years I haven’t been really too excited about decorating for the holidays, either.

Anyway, I’ve just been thinking about this for a while. Strange me. Another one of my oddities.

So I’ve been swimming lately… I have been liking it so much that I bought the year membership to my local pool. It was expensive, $190 a year. But it’s $4.50 to go each time, and so buying the year should really pay itself back pretty soon.

I went to the doctor today to have him check out my sprained Ankle. He didn’t seem to address any soft tissue damage really. And my left ankle has been hurting since 2007. And it’s gotten worse again. He said I have some mild bone spurs and some mild arthritis… but I should keep weight bearing on the ankle (walking on it) but reduce my activities. So I need to cut back on agility. Even obedience can be a lot of stress on an ankle, so I might take a break from that, too.

Oh well. Life goes on. Someday we’ll be able to replace most of our bodies with metal or something stronger. Not cheap laminate flooring though… that’d just be a bad thing. I’d just love to be an android. No emotions, just logic, and a very strong body. Though of course I would miss the love and bonding with my friends, family and dogs. So maybe that’s no ideal either.

Oh great. So yesterday I went jogging in the morning with Jet and Chase, and when I got home and was walking through our front yard, I stepped in a hole in the grass with my good ankle, twisted it, and fell over. Of course I heard something crack too. UGH! That’s the last thing I need!

So I worked from home yesterday and was able to stay off it most of the day, thanks to my husband. When I walk on it, it twinges a bit, but it’s not like black and blue and horribly swollen so that’s good. But my left ankle is already sprained and has been hurting lately, so having my right ankle, my good ankle, get sprained, is the last thing I need.

But I guess if I stay off both of them for a week, it’ll be good for them both. I was going to go jogging on Wednesday morning before work again, but maybe I will take the week off. Go swimming on Friday again and just take it easy. Taking it easy is a good thing anyway.

So yesterday, August 1, 2010, was my 22 year anniversary with the State of Utah. I can’t believe it’s been so many years. Where did all the time go? I think the first 9 years went by a lot slower than these last years. The first 9 years I worked in Welfare. Got burned out, and so went to the Salt Lake Community College, got my degree in Computer Information Services, and got a job as a programmer. And I’ve been there ever since.

The good news is I only have 3 more years before I can retire. Well my official permanent hire date was sometime in September, so I plan on retiring the end of September, 2013. But still. 25 years is a long dang time.

August 1, 1988 is when I started. That seems a lifetime ago. But in a way, it seems like it was just yesterday.

Well things are going along pretty well. I am feeling better.  My muscles seem to be less electrified.  And my face seems to be less swollen, as I wean myself off the drugs. I seem to have more patience and I’m happier too.  And at this point I don’t care about the anxiety… I just want to feel better physically. And I think the bio-identical progesterone has helped a lot too. Feeling better hopefully means I’ll live a long healthy life and won’t need any life insurance leads but you never know!

Also, I’ve been exercising more.  I started swimming! I’ve been a couple of times and I hope to go tomorrow, too. It’s really fun. The first time I felt like a dog splashing in the water who had never swam before. But then I got better. And yesterday, my second time, I got a lot better! So now I have to make the time to keep it up and get into shape. So I figure if I swim twice a week, and jog twice a week with the dogs, that’ll be good for me. And I’m eating well too now.

So life goes on, I’m trying to stay healthy and drop this stupid weight too. Bleh.